busy....

oh!im so busy again!this is my first time since my last blog writing when i was in ausie. what has happened to me?well i arrived last june 2. and well the usual thing i handed some 'pasalubong' to friends and family. i was so busy because i am applying for universitites abroad so i arranged mytranscripts and stuffs. and i am still having difficulties because of UP system...so slow... it will take 2 months before thet could hand me down my OTR. well i am currently applying for Uni of sydeney,uni of NSW,macquarie uni and wollongong uni. the truth is,for me, it's not really fun to stay in australia because it's a bit deserted because of few people around the place and of course,its about culture. the western people are not that warm to each other as compared to asians.though i saw lots of asians in sydney, i can still feel the barrier."iba talaga sa Pilipinas". it's true that living here is much difficult as compared to other countries in the case of earning for living. but the question is why are we like this?why can other counries make it?and not us?look at singapore,much much smaller than Philippines but they are so rich even if they lack natural resources... that's why i want to apply abroad to study so that i can be an asset in the future. i want to help build a country in ruins. but i know i have to work hard first and study harder. it just burdens me to know that people in other countries oly think of us as maids,domestic helpers and nurses. im not saying that these are not good proffesions but i just dont like the fact that these people are looking down on us.so i want to make a difference. but sometimes it's just so difficult... but i always bear in mind that i have to do this for my Master.

actually i have guilty feeling since i have arrived from australia. i said some things which should not be spoken. i said some things out of my hatred and pain in my heart that i puored it out to some of my relatives... i shouldn't have done that...but i can't do anything about it anymore...
and about my applications.... i dont know,if God permits me to,then i'll study there,if not, then im just gonna continue pharmacy here. either ways,im contented. Thank God.