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I’m back again… more learning… a very tiring week but I’m happy… well I realize a lot of things… one of that is that I think I just wrote a lot of garbage in my blog… yes my feelings… what I think… but I realize that I’m just copying some posts from my fellow bloggers… about what happened this day… or that… then what now? It’s good to have this to release your emotions … I was then a copycat… I’m not honest with myself with what to write… or even the mode of language to use… well this is me… why should I pretend to be someone that I’m not? In fact I’ll be proud of myself if I also write things that would be more educational and fruitful to me…. I’m going to write from now on my opinions of certain things, what I feel, my new learning’s, and of course those topics that will make me a better person… not just merely a copy cat!
Well for this week I realize that I have to do my best… our anniversary in my church is Running with Horses… this is the God race… it’s from Jeremiah 12: 5 “If you have raced with men by foot and they have worn you out, how can you compete with horses? If you stumble in safe country, how will you manage in the thickets by the Jordan?" yep… this is my main burden right now in my studies… I’m really trying hard right now but when I got the results it’s just average…. Oh my like in chemistry and biology…. But I just thought that it’s just the start, I should not loose hope. Sometimes we think that we can’t do certain things because it’s difficult but as Nick Joaquin said in his “heritage of smallness” that we just compete with those that we are capable of competing with or when we are competing with those things which are easy to handle but when it becomes to little things we tend to be frightened and not fight anymore because we are afraid even we are just starting the fight… as Coach Carter said “the loosing stops right now and the winning is just beginning today.” So if I’m lazy and doing things not worthy of doing… then I’m a looser… I must be a good example so that my “saltiness and light” would shine in the world for them and for me to glorify the Lord. Well I should gladly say that. But I always pray not to be self righteous because there is nothing to brag about because this is all for the grace of God.
To Him be the Glory!