[[ Merry Christmas! ]]

it's been a long time since i write on my thoughts here.
it's been a good year.... 2006
many things had happened...
i transferred into a new campus here in Manila
i got a lot of frustrations and dilemmas on my course
but eventually i gave up asking myself and decided to push through
i'm always sick since i transferred here... i mean in my school
i got new friends...
i hated some subjects... and subjects to be taken..
i still love reading books...
my brother moved away to cavite in order to concentrate on his studies more
Maynilad gave us a hard time on water supply
some days i slept in Pasig house
my relatives in Australia came...
and of course... they are giving me a debut party
which i never expected ever in my life...
i learned a lot
i was touched...
God still with me all throughout and i can't ask for more...

now it's just my brother, mom and I...
we don't want to cook so much since we're just three and the water is scarce..
and i feel that that's not really the meaning of Christmas...
it's just in our hearts,,
thanking the Lord for His Son
whom he sent despite od the turbulence around...
and I hope i can be an excellent student that can enligthen people and be unbound
from the cycle of "smallnes" in my country. i know it's difficult but I have to work hard.

Thank You Lord for though I don't deserve anything, You gave me too much
that You have given Your life for me.
and that is the true meaning of Christmas...
I Love You....

---- Joanna----

my visit to the venue

today, i went to plaza ibarra with mon, kuya jai and ate madel for the food tasting. ms. karen assisted us. she also let me choose the cake and souvenirs for the debut. i chose the chyme... the food was really good! fantastic/...
this is the wsing... where i will sit



the stairs that will lit up


food tasting yum yum!!


the mini garden outside...


thanks to all the people and most of all to God! somethimg i did not even imagined!

---why are you so good to be true???

since you are the only one that i liked since i stayed in upm... and yet ur so good to be true...
and that the wrong love is selfish...
i quit...
i'll just include you in my daydreams
coz i'll never get you
never.

[[++ poor house ++]]

why do people sometimes get selfish whrn they fall in love???
why don't they care about their children anymore when they are in love?
it's better for me to stay alone in santolan if i always feel this way.... but i feel some responsibilities for our house... a house that i really would like to call my home but it seems like the heart of the home is missing...
my brother is staying in cavite because he doesn't want to stay at our house too because of the people ... not just because it is untidy...
poor house.... slowly ....by and by the people living inside are getting extremely lonely...
i am happy that i was able to transfer to the campus of my school in manila to be near my family....
but as i went home... i found only one.... and he even went away....
poor house.... no home.... no heart....
i am extremely sad at the moment...
but i just think of my father in heaven and get a glimpse of happiness
an inner happiness within....
thank God he loves me so much.

[[++ marathon again?!++]]

addicted again as usual... in cavite i watched the lure of the wolves...]

the guy drove me crazy!





and while wating for dad at the house i was able to watch a glimpse of my lovely sam soon but the subtitles are in japanese... i was addicted with hyun bin and the story so i bought a copuy, even went to lrt north mall just for this ...whoah my head is spinning he's so gorgeous!





the girl is not actually fat,... she's sexy and beutiful!




but i hVE to control myself because classes will be starting on monday again... i should cherish last moments....

[[++ waaaaahhhh again ++]]

okay i checked my grades and this are the results

UNIVERSITY OF THE PHILIPPINES, MANILA
[2005-00206] MONTEJAR, JOANNA ELAINE ESLAO (BS P)
Student Grades
1st semester/2006-2007
Grade
Re-exam
Units/Hrs
HISTORY 4
1.50
-
3
PHYSICS 51
2.25
-
3
COMM I
no grade
-
-
IP 121 (LAB)
no grade
-
-
HISTORY II
1.25
-
3
BIO 20
1.75
-
5
IP 121 (LEC)
INC
-
PHAR 100
1.75
-
1
NSTP
P
-
-
*** NO ENTRY FOLLOWS ***
GWA: 1.700 ( GOOD STANDING )
-----15


waaah 15 units only....? 21!waah i have to take the exam in ip so that i won't be incomplete!huhuhu!

[[++ stay.. ++]]

i transferred the song by lisa loeb to my phone... he used to play the intro in his guitar while i do the talking... i said so many times that i'm over him... i said a couple of times that i would forget him... i said a million times that i was never in - love with some body...

but i guess i was wrong because it's almost two years now... and i can still remember him. when i thought of other guys that i was attracted to before... i got goosebumps and just forget about them... i laugh and i thought i was really funny during those times that i did silly things... but whenever i remember him it was different..
he was good but he did not treat me well as i have treated him... he said some words that really broke my heart... especially the last time that i called him... i am still not over him... although he pushed me out... he is still on my mind...
am i bringning pain unto myself?

..... hindi kailangang suklian ang pagmamahal na yun... sapat ng nasa puso at isip ko na lamang siya... at sana maayos siya ngayon... siguri nga hindi niya na ako maalala at ibang- iba na ang mundo niya habang ako iniisip ko kung kamusta na siya... ganito pala pag hindi mo nasabi... hindi mo mailabas at hanggang ngayon ginugulo pa rin ako ng mga alaala namin na importante saakin pero balewala lang sakanya...

my first love... although unrequited love... is never a waste because i learned to love unconditionally... though i am left thinking about you it's alright. i wish you a happy life. don't worry , you will never know my love. you don't have to be confused, i just love you so much ....

now, i loved... i am happy with those memories.
you don't have to know that i love you...
and i still remember you from time to time...
half of me wants to meet you... half of me wants to hold it back and be mad at you....
yet,despite the circumstances i think i fall in love with you every day...
i miss you ... stay...

[[++ stay ++]]

currently playing stay... by lisa loeb... its a beutiful morning i just woke up from a nightmare... i dreamed of 'duh again... and the he is mad at me that is why he does not talk to me... maybe i will just accept that as true that is why he doesn't care anymore...
but when i played the song i remembered him playing it... the intro... why can't i forget it???!!!
i hate it! i am done with him but memories still longer on...= ( please let me forget you...

[[++it just shows i'm gonna be a doctor!++]]

You Should Get a MD (Doctor of Medicine)

You're both compassionate and brilliant - a rare combination.You were born to be a doctor.

What'>http://www.blogthings.com/whatadvanceddegreeshouldyougetquiz/">What Advanced Degree Should You Get?

hahaha i am so happy! at least it shows...

[[++??++]]

Your Birthdate: January 3

You are more than a big ball of energy - you are a big ball of hyper.You are always on the go, but you don't have a type a personality.Instead of channeling your energy into work, you instead go for fun and adventure.Witty and verbal, you can have an interesting conversation with anyone. Your strength: Your larger than life imagination Your weakness: You tend to be pretty scattered Your power color: Lime Your power symbol: Lightening bolt Your power month: March

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[[++ what??++]]

Your Birthdate: January 3

You are more than a big ball of energy - you are a big ball of hyper.You are always on the go, but you don't have a type a personality.Instead of channeling your energy into work, you instead go for fun and adventure.Witty and verbal, you can have an interesting conversation with anyone. Your strength: Your larger than life imagination Your weakness: You tend to be pretty scattered Your power color: Lime Your power symbol: Lightening bolt Your power month: March

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

[[++ i am done with harry potter! ++]]

i already finished harry potter and the half- blood prince...
i was really terified with the ending! i hate it huhuhu
sorry for dumbledore because he have to die...
oh my...
what will happen to harry???
i am really excited on how they will film this...
i can't imagine... i really pity Dumbledore because he even beg snape for mercy
i hate snape!



well J.K. Rowling did a great job again of mesmerizing me of her talent!

[[++ i'm in LB ++]]

well i am here in uplb with my friends mai and esway. a am so happy today because i also got to see my old bio- friends... oh i really miss them. we ate in lb square and i gave esway the princess hours and the book. she was so happy and we watched a couple of episodes but then mai arrived and we have to eat already. now i am with them at the computer shop and they are still researching on botany... well i thought we could have more time but i guess not... well i still thought of my iplab exam from time to time...

i really want to finish it now and take the exam!
why are they prolonging my agony???? i hate it!
grrrrrrrrrrrrr!!!!!!!!!

[[++ beautiful day ++]]

hi i just went home. my friends and i [[ my original circle of friends ]] went to encar's huse, then to mall. we went to mocha blends, ice berg and ice monster... sounds like we ate a lot! haha i really missed them.... we giggled a lot ... super happy...
pictures at my multiplyhttp://jolen8.multiply.com

[[++ waaah i am so sad ++]]

waaah i am really sad i will take an exam on ip lab again because i did not passed

it is only 68 waaah i thought i am going on a vacation already huhuhu... maybe it is a lesson for me because i was always watching and i always cram while studying ip lab huhuhu i will not do it again!!!!!

[[++ washing day ... and some thoughts++]]

well it's sunday evening and i am doing some washing and mopping today. well i think the house is really a mess. well anyway that's nonsense..haha so what do i want to say? well actually i finished watching full house again and i was satisfied. but i just thought of the reality that these are not really true. i really can't make the one i like ... like me ... it is complicaed and you end up not being known... you won't be able to expressa yourself and sometimes it is useless cause you know that you two cannot be tgether... and the bigger picture is that it is not always important.. you have to keep your main thing in life... that's what i can say... and that for me is my mission in life... my purpose for living... so now i think being in love will just interfere that... and it is good that i don't feel it right now... and i never did... they said it is addicting... but i am also addicted to watching korean series and movies... so it shows i am also in love in doing that... maybe so... but i know they are not of the same level. i just pray that i won't still find that person because if that time comes... it is difficult to prioritize because i am obsessed with it... i know my tendencies just like watching korean series... oooh it is really dangerous...., because i give it all... well anyway i posted pictures of abby's bday in my multiply... well sorry just now...hehehttp://jolen8.multiply.com

[[++ happy ++]]

after my finals in IP lab i immediately watched and enjoyed watching full house again and can you imagine that i watched it straight from 9pm up to 6 in the morning haha so amusing isn't it? then i slept afterwards mom came around 9 am and told me to prepare because we would go to edd sy. well he is actually good and known for making gowns. i saw many celebrities who asked him to make their gowns and other outfits. wow cool and he is good. as for my gown, i really like his design and he said that the gown would be tightened so that my waist will be smaller. that means i have to lose weight ok???? waaaahhhhh i have to go to gym again i only have 2 months to do this huhu

[[++ addicted++]]

waah help me i am so addicted with korean dramas!!!
what have i watched?
-winter sonata{my very first}
- it started with a kiss--cutie
-goong(i love this}
-my girl {good couple,so funny}
-spring waltz{dramatic and classical}
-which planet are you from {still watching}
-wonderful life{a family story,very good!}
-full house{cute jessie}
-autumn in my heart{so tragic!}
-stairway to heaven{i also cried}
and a lot more

waah i think i watched the best koreanovelas.. what's next?

[[++ what a day++]]

its 12 52 already and i am still in fron of the computer.. well i am planning to study later at night. i want to enjoy for the momment. last night i watched wind struck and i cried again. i remembered "duh" again because he's the one who told me that he likes it and it is a good film... well i just remembered nothing really special... but i thought if ever we meet again... what will happen to me? because the mere thought made my heart jump... but it does not mean that i still like him it's just that maybe i had supressed feelings before that i was not able to bring out. but i really hope we wont meet each other. memories would be just fine.

i will also make a check list of what's to be done this sem break... i dont want to waste my time not being able to do what i need and want to do. well i just dont want to be bored. hehe



i have plans for my friends also and for my debut. i guess i have to prepare the pics already...

"yawn* time for some sleep... i would read harry potter book 6 then have a nap and study!

[[++ new lay out++]]

well i have lots of time for today so as early as 8 am i was already making the lay out and i am so happy because i really like my header(so sweet) hahaha i really like this series may be no. 2 from endless love winter sonata...


oh prince shin....

the cast...

i really like this... i have watched this series a hundred times!! huhu!

but why do i like kissing scenes? well i dont know....haha