im getting sleepy na ang lamig kasi
but i have to study for tomorrow is the day of judgement haha
i want to write something non academic after tomorrow naman
i want to be normal hahahaha
i will not write anything academic after my removals hanggang sa may balota na pumasa nako hahahaha
well God bless us
gusto ko magbakasyon after this kahit 2 days lang(mom's bday )
and we'll go daw to baguio and dagupan for tito's bday=)
oh Lord help us....
waaah nagiiiyak ako buong weekend nagkamali lang pala sila pag input ng grade ko
ayan tuloy sinayang ko oras ko di ako nagaral buong weekend at magreremove naman daw talaga ako...shuks sorry Lord i doubted you kala ko singko na talaga ako
oh well sobra na kaba ko kailangan ko na mag aral
grabe nagiiiyak ako at nakasimangot ng dalawang araw sa lungkot
haay at least alam kona ganon pala gagawin ko pag singko talaga ako
ayoko nang ganong feeling!
napaisip tuloy ulit sila mama kung lilipat nako ng school haha
God bless sating mga removers
sana ipasa na natin to our last chance!
fight!
huhuhuhuhu
di ko alam kung mag aaral pa ako
bakit singko na ko sa phch135 sa CRS?!waaaaah
di ko naman mapuntahan ngaun skul dahil saturday at sarado di ko makuha classcard ko
para san pa nagaaral ako?!waaaaah
huhuhuhu
i don't know what to do im so scared+(
bakit pa nila pinost yung name ko sa bulletin na magreremoe kung singko na rin pala ako
waaah nagalit mama ko huhuhuhuhu
today i just studied a bit. weLL mag bbday na mama ko in grande parang debut niya so naisip ko pa magpaayos...ayaw ko na sana magpafacial the mere thought of having those blood stains in their tissues after wards(waah ang sakit ng mukha ko) magtiis daw ako sabi ni mommy kasi almost 2 years nako di nagpapa facial...
bakit dati di naman uso yan ha
(huhu ang sakit ng mukha ko)
ang kapal ko talaga nakuha ko pa pumunta don di pa nga ako tapos mag aral ang haba kasi nung kay sir sig
kinakabahan pako dahil baka mas hirapan nila ung removal exam ....mas mahirap daw kasi ung sa biochem...OMG wag naman sila magbigay ng hope na pumasa tapos babawiin din pala.
anyway nagaaral ako after magpasalon ng hair sa starbucks hanggang sa lumaabas na mama ko ng 6pm... grabe ayoko na mag aral sa bahay i'm always sleeping....
and like this.... im in front of the laptop=((( grrrr nawawala focus ko may tv pa
alam mo un alam kasi ng katawan ko sabi "ui joanna bakasyon ngayon ha, baka gusto mo mag good time...hehe"
pero sabi ng brains ko
"mahiya ka nga pasalamat ka nga magreremove ka pa eh."
tapos may sports feast samin tom i have to go ba or not????
waaah im in a dilemma nagalit kuya ko kung di ako punta....
AT BUWISIT UNG CRS SINGKO NAKO AGAD SA 135 EH DI PA NGA AKO NAGREREMOVE! HUHU LALO AKO KINABAHAN!
waaaaah sana nagkamali lang sila sa crs at hindi sa pagpopost ng pangalan ko na magreremove pako sa 135=((
hindi nako makatulog sa kaba!
di ko tuloy alam kung may saysay tong inaaral ko para magremove or tama yung grades ko online na singko nako sa phch135
LORD MAAWA KO WAG NAMAN=(
sana naduling lang sila sa pag input ng grades huhuhu
shuks di nako maka concentrate! papasok ako sa monday para makita classcard ko!
LORD HAVE MERCY PLS MAKE IT APPEAR TO BE 4.0 NOT 5.0 HUHUHU
para saan pa at nagrererejoice ako nung tuesday huhuhu andon ako sa bulletin eh huhu
i saw my name huhuhu
WAAAAH kala ko may masaya nako masusulat dito bad trip...
di ako matutulog ...MAGAARAL AKO WAAAAAH
ano na nga ba nangyari saakin sa sem na ito???
well for this sem sumabog na ko sa STRESS
napaka pessimistic ko na ngayon ko lang napansin na wala na akong good news
na sinulat sa blog na ito haha
dati pinagsusulat ko...wala lang....
tapos im trying to read the last book of twilight series .... "breaking dawn"
tapos nainis lang ako...kaya yun tinigil ko na agad feeling ko sayang oras ko
then nanood nalang ako...as usual na addik na naman ako ng konti.pero buti tigil ko nalang muna kasi magreremove ako sa 35...hehe im happy=) (pero hihirit lang ako last nuod muna ako movie ngayon hehe)
sana di ako binigyan ng opportunity para lang ibagsak pa din.... so aral na naman ulit
waah lagi nalang ako laman ng UPM ..... laging nasa Rob at nasa Pharm...haay wala na sembreak....pero ok lang basta pumasa lang....ok lang mag aral pa din sa bakasyon=)
at least 1 down na kasi pumasa na ko sa anaphysio=)
AFTER 4 YEARS ANO NA BANG NANGYARI SAAKIN SINCE HIGHSCHOOL???
haay alam ko next sem mas mahirap ... at nagbawas na naman sila ng mga studyante..
(please Lord add me to the filtrate,,, i dont want to be a aprt of the residue=( ) hello sino kaya may gusto na medelay wala naman talaga...
un lang narealize ko na bumaba na ang mga kaligayahan ko....
nung highschool pag may grade akong line of 8... mababa na saakin yun....
tapos naiinis pa ako nun pag yung quiz ko mababa...
grabe tama lang pala yun kasi ngayon ang tingin ko sa line of 4 ay mataas na....
mahirap na maka line of 5....
lalong mas mahirap pumasa... tapos epal pa tong soc sci na 70 daw passing...what the?!
NAKO pano na kaya ang grade ko sa med nyan????napaka mediocre ko lang....
kung di ako lumipat ng course.... sana kasama ko sila Mai at nag e-NMAT review kami...'
pero eto ako delayed dahil nagshift
tapos nag 5 years pa na hindi ko naman magagamit kasi nga pre med ko nga lang to eh....
sabi ko nga sa kanila pag ako talaga grumaduate dito iiyak ako hindi katulad nung highschool na dahil sa friends pero i'll cry just for myself for all the hardships....
ngayon lang ako umiyak sa buong buhay ko na tungkol sa akads.... never ko pa nagawa yun ng highschool kasi nga mataas grades ko nun...
puede kaya baliktad nalang??kasi mas importante college sa highschool grades....
pero ayun sabi nga no regrets na dapat...
natatawa ako sabi nung mga kasama ko kanina gusto daw nila maging normal na college...
ako din nga eh nasabi ko na yan sa kaibigan ko...
gusto ko maging normal katulad nung ibang studyanteng college na balanse lang naman ang buhay...may aral,friends,pahinga,recreation...naiinis pa nga kami lgi sa katapat na school namin kasi lagi silang mukhang laging bakasyon...
habang ang hair ko ay super dyahe galing sa lab at di pa kumakain sa buong araw...
minsan dala dala pa ung tool box na nagmumukha akong taga pedicure or taga linis ng bahay
pag nakalimutan ko ung sponge ko sa ibabaw or gloves...tapos white uniform pa huhu
kamukha na namin ung katulong ni Ruffa G.... kaya nga name plate na nga lang pan laban ko...yun nalang dignidad namin hahaha
yun nga kasi meron lang kaming aral sa bahay, aral sa jeep,aral sa lrt, Aral habang naglalakad, aral sa skul , sa lib... aral habang kuwentuhan sa friends... at pati ba naman pinaguusapan namin puro ka GC han parin.... pero un nga problema mas kinakabahan pako pag iba ang pinaguusapan namin....pag di akads may problema...feeling mo truant ka na
di- nare ko ung friend ko kasabay sa LRT "cge nga try nga natin wag magusap about akads para maging normal tayo".... eh ayun wala pang 10 min pumasok na naman ang mga prelab at post lab reports... cgro kung nakakapagsalita lang yung Ale sabi sguro nya "Nene na nonose bleed ako... ang nerd nyo" haha pero wala nga kami ibang pinagusapan kundi mga subject namin...
kung higschool ako nito kaihiya na nila ako...pero ngayong college ang masasabi ko lang
"pakelam nyo? eh mahirap eh."
haay ditp lang ako nakaranas ng hirap na over na sa limits ko...kasi dati pag super na nabibigay ko na yung nest ko sa sobrang pursigido...pero ngayon parang...ayon nga im an Amoeba...sana maging bacteria nga daw kami para magevolve kasi daw tumatalino sila...
ilang beses ko na nga pinangarap lumipat ng school sa sem na ito at nagiiiyak ako sa mama ko kasi super tagal na nga tapos super hirap pa at bumababa lang grades ko eh hirap na ako maka apply sa UP- PGH nyan....hmmm kaya nga sabi ko kay mama UST nalang tutal di naman na nila ako tatanggapin sa UP sa grades ko...kaso ayaw nila=(
kahit daw mabulok ako 10 taon la sila care=(
ok pa sana yung hirap eh basta mabait mga prof...
well welcome to pharm...
para kang garapata pag nakausap mo sila.. parang kahapon ka lang pinanganak sa mundo....well may mga sadyang mabait naman talaga ("sir bang!")...un nga lang rare lang sila at umalis pa...
alam mo yun super drain na utak ko parang wala nang lugar sa 100 assays....
emotionally= 0 na
love life = ano un?
social life= classmates lang
haay wala na ba kong masasabing maganda....
ito nalang siguro...
sabi ng college sec namin sa hirap ng training namin
pag graduate namin... chicklet nalang ang stress sa labas...
oowss totoo ba yan... kaya nasasabihan kaming mayayabang eh...
pero sa totoo lang di naman kami mayabang...sobrang nahihirapan lang kami
kaya pag labas ganon... misunderstanding lang...
isa lang naman ang gusto naming mangyari eh
ANG MAKAGRADUATE AT MAKAALIS NA SA AMING KOLEHIYO. BOW.
kung magkakaanak ako di ko siya pakukunin ng course na ito... sa totoo lang ....
pero as of now i have to accept it na wala there's no way out but to face it.
aja!go JOM! in times of trials... mas malakas ang kapit ko kay Lord...
mas nagiging totoo Siya saakin...
so why should I lose heart? I still have Him no matter what=)
OMG talaga
God alowed me to have one last chance
kuwatro ako yahoo!!!!!
dapat pasa ko na to milagro itong malaki
28 lang pinagremove nila
20 lang daw halos pinasa nila....
I trust in You alone....
thank God
di ko natapos ung exam mga 20% yun
di ko rin sure yung iba
wala 5.0 nako=((((
grabe next year nanaman ulit....
awa nalang ni Lord pag pinagremove pa niya ako.......
im so tired
so so tired
mga 15 hours ako nakatulog simula natulog ako kahapon di nako nagising
pano isang oras lang tulog ko nung monday at 2 hours nung sunday
di pa kami pinag exam na anatomy dahil di naka unifrm
buti nalang may mabait na blockmate napuntahan namin napahiram kami...grabe
kala ko ph ch department lang malupit
pati pala sila
wala silang awa
grabe ung college namin walang mga puso....
di nako nagtataka kung walang nagdodonate
konting awa nalang talaga nila...
supre ayaw ko na isipin ang sakit talaga kasi ibabagsak ko lang lahat ng mga pinaghirapan ko at puyat ko........para nakong intermed...
7 years na sa BS degree palang....
.......................
i need 90 to pass phch35 sa finals puede ba to???huhu
grabe magbaba naman sila ng passing
hala sana naman may masulat ako dito someday na masaya puro nalang ganito ayoko na!!!!!!!!!
gsto ko ulit mag highschool waaaaaa
balik nyo nako don tapos di ako magphapharm ever waaaahhhh
promise,,,,
super aral na
pumasa lang please???
last two weeks nalang
pag di ako pinayagan mag remove it means 5.0 na ko
puwera nalang kung mga naka 80percent ako sa finals which is somewat impossible
waaaaahhhh
Lord help
cge na naman huwag mo kaming i- delay =(
huhu we'll really work hard......
please???
kung super aral na non double time
gagawin kong quadruple time....huhu help=(
waaah
isa lang sa buong batch ang pumasa(congrats)
come on ang usapan sa school ay kung yung score mo ay mas matanda sayo?mas bata?o malapit?funny ba???pero sad to say ganon talaga
(mga ka batch iyak nalang tayo,group hug)
grabe parang nag quiz lang ako
buti sana kung di tayo nag aral eh wala na nga ako tulog
nagpapaka zombie na ako
walang tv
walang social life
walang kahit ano!!!!!!!!!!!!
pero wala parin
we're still humans you know?? di naman yung ang basihan ng natutunan namin
kasi yung mga exams ang OA na imposible na talaga unless nga ikaw nga ay super genius katulad ni Mr. Genius
eh what now we're not like him???
gosh im losing hope !!!!!!!!!!!
(batch mates,group hug)
ito ha sa totoo lang wala na kami inisip kundi pumasa lang
kahit mga subjects ko nga napapanaginipan ko na
and no one can understand our pain except us who are going through with it
di ko na alam basta aral nalang ng aral
di ko na alam pupuntahan nito
buti pa nong bio pa ako non huhuhu
pero wala na ako magawa i can't escape this predicament anymore and the only way is to go through it.........
sakit na ng ulo ko!!!!!!!!!!!!grrrrrrrrrrrrr
ayoko makakita ng delingkwenteng studyante na pumapasa nagiinit ulo ko
what you sew you don't reap!!!!!!!!!!
its so unfairrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr
kahit efforts mo wala sila pake alam!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
kahit pagod na pagod ka na ...ok lang physically pero
emotionall ang spiritually im so abashed!!!!!!!!!!!!
ano ba dapat di nalang ako matulog?i bet di parin ako papasa kung tulog lang ang basihan
WHY ARE THEY SO MEAN?THEY THINK THAT WE THINK LIKE THEM???
sorry ha pasensya na di kami kasing talino nyo!!
i hate this!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
but i have no choice but to study again=( im so tired na
but i don't want to be delayed again coz im so delayed
(batchmates.... fight nalang....for final and removals)
gosh la pako pinapasang exam ni isa
as in
isa palang sa 111 lec=(
kahit anatomy na nga lang di ko na mapasa sa wala nang concentration sa dami inaaral
im not happy kasi dapat masaya ka dahil may new learning kaso wala eh
either takot ako sa kanila,at gusto ko lang pumasa yun lang alam ko gawin.
I HAVE NEVER BEEN SO STRESSED LIKE THIS
super lalo na pag alam mong candidate ka na rin for repeatition
IM TIRED NA.
BUT I HAVE TO FIGHT.......
LET'S FIGHT FRIENDS........
FOCUS (KAHIT FOCUS KA NA GAWIN MONG 200%)
WAG NA MATULOG
MAGARAL NALANG
HULING 3 WEEKS NALANG,AT KAILANGAN MALAGPASAN ANG STRESS
PRAY.......PRAY....
AWA NALANG NI LORD...kundi wala na.... give up na ako talaga.
i am so exhausted already
i am close to giving up
i told my mom to transfer to another school already in case
because i am just taking pre med and if worse comes to worst
im gonna ba taking it for 7years imagine?!
im so exhausted mentally,physically,emotionally,spiritually.
its ok kung physical lang pero kung pati emotions at spiritual na
parang mas di ko take yun
its because of a particular subject
parang tingin ko sa sarili ko amoeba lang ako
ganon lang ka liit ang capacity ko magisip
yung wala nalang learning kasi tuwing pumapasok ka natatakot ka mapagalitan
at ayaw mo mahuli na wala kang alam which is good on another side pero sa kabilang dako ang everyday na pagpasok ay nagiging burden nalang sayo.
i need a new hope
hindi ako puedeng masama sa mga ififilter ngayong sem....
kailangan ko pa lumaban
where does my hope come from?
it comes from You..........
wish ko lang mabalik ko tong ugali na to
dapat magpaka gc para pumasa
waaah nagpapaka gc na nga ako eh bakit di pa rin maganda results?!
ayoko namang magpaka hermit baka magalit friends ko bigla ko silang iiwasan
for the sake of grades
....well kung ano ano na naiisip ko
waaah ayoko lang bumagsak...gsto ko lang grumaduate ng premed huhuhu
ayoko na ng phch !!!!!!!!!!ayoko na natatakot ako kay mam t*****
waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
kahit na minsan hindi natin agad makita ang resulta ng mga ginagawa natin, hindi parin tayo dapat mawalan ng pag- asa. recently dumaan ako sa point na nawawalan na ako ng morale. para kasing walang nangyayari sa mga ginagawa ko. pero mali pala yun. kasi paginiisip mo yon lalong liliit ang mundo mo, sesentro yon sa "kawawa naman ako" masyadong nagiging self centered perop sa totoo lang mas marami pang mga problema na mas nakakawala ng pag- asa.
wala lang naealize ko lang.
wag tayong susuko.
wag tayo masyado makinig sa ingay sa paligid...
but let's just listen to the voice within.........
the voice of truth...
the voice of God which says do not be afraid.
nako may narealize ako
brotherly love lang talaga
kasi yung isa niyang blockmate na favorite ko, same lang yung affection ko para dun at kay brotherly love....
hindi sila comparable kay KAS...
walang mga kilig factor at hiya factor eh hehe
hmmm siguro nga lubusan lang akong natuwa sa kanya
yun lang...at least maliwanag na saakin=)
he's really a dear brother to me=)
its 4am
nagbabalat ako ngayon ng squash seeds
come on!
para sa Lab... grabe kahapon 2 hours lang tulog ko pero bakit parang nung exam kulang pa din?!
kinakabahan na ako tuloy sa mga results ng mga exam ko...walang truimph after exam...parang di ako nagpuyat?!grabe ang sad ko lang talaga....sobrang hrap naman nila magpaexam di naman ibig sabihin na kung medyo gawin nilang feasible for us di na kami mag-aaral...ano ba yan?!grrr
well for today at least ....
badtrip!
nagbago na talaga tingin ko kay bestfriend ni brotherly love... bad trip siya feeler kala naman niya close kami para gawin niya yon?!grr nagbago tingin ko talaga sa kanya grrr...
pero may magandang nangyari....
tinabihan ako ni brotherly love at tinanong ko siya kung ganon din siya
sabi niya ganon din daw siya malakas mang asar pero EXCEPT DAW SAKIN
WAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
HEHEHEHE
well actually alam ko kung bakit
kasi mabait ako sakanya lagi ko pinapahiram ng notes kaya nahihiya naman siya kung maging bad siya sakin...
eh bakit yung isa mabait din naman ako don!ang answer.... DEVIL KASI SIYA
hentai boy PA grrrrrrrrrrrrrr
nako bakit ba ako nakipag kaibigan don?!
sayang niyaya pa naman ako ni brother na sumabay sakanila....xempre kasama niya yun niyaya rin ako nung bully boy na yon....over my dead body!ayoko na siya makasabay grrr
sayang...niyaya pa naman ako ni brother....huhu
>>waaah aral ka na JOM!dami pa exam!waaaah
asar lang talaga ako sa feeler na un!hmffff
grabe dapat ata bawas bawasan ko na ang paglapit kayo brotherly love dahil chinichismis na ako sa batch 06 ....hmmm gumagawa sila ng mga issue hindi lang kay brotherly love pati na sa bestfriend nun...hala bigla akong nagkaroon ng maraming affair?!well friends just to confirm ang totoong balita
joke lang yung mga yon at walang katotohanan ok?!please maniwala kayo saakin
wala na akong time sa mga ganyan
well nagkakaroon lang ng chismax para di malunod sa akads ang mga tao at para may iba namang pag-usapan bukod kay jenkins,tortora,cabatin,etc.... ok?!
my heart is not available for anybody. period.
mahilig lang ako mag joke
kayo talaga friends kala nyo naman im serious...anyway...
Mood: >>--- sad=( 2:46 am
waaah a big alErt
huhuhu
i think
my brother waaaah in skul
waaah its forbidden!
ang labo! waaah di puede!
well today tagal namin sa lab grabe 1pm palang ako nakakain ...di ako nag dinner, at breakfast grabe fasting! well chinika nalang namin si sir bang ang bait talaga niya sana lahat nalang ng teacher samin ay si sir bang grabe binigyan pako tips for med at grabe usap lang kami ng usap (wish ko lang di niya binabawasan sa pagdadaldal ko sa kanya sa lab) grabe umiral kadaldalan ko kanina... tagal kasi magevaporate nung phospholipid preparation hassle!late na kami naka reflux at ung clamp na isa nawala ko pa! (j0c tago mo yung clamp na isa mahal un thnx!)
ayun
and i have a problem with my
"kuya brother"
waaah incest! (hindi si kuya francis)
ok ok! aral pa ako!
nahumaling na ako ngayon sa pagdownload ng ebook.... la lang ayun
then natuwa lang ako sa presentatio nila sir bang at maam solidum
sabi ni sir bang "always study hard, there is no fear to failure"
bait nya talaga!(kenvee di ko siya inaagaw ha)
currently kim sam soon as background at naalala ko na naman yung kasuwertehan niya sa guy.... parang ako kasi yun ...at imposible nga lang mangyari yung mga ganong bagay
no fALSE hopes
and just study har sabi ni sir hehe thanks sir bang=)
1:09 am
nagaaral ako for ana physio at mejo na antok antok ako kaya ito nagsusulat ako ngayon
may ginawa ako kahapon at chineck ko na naman ang profile ni KAS
>>>grabe ang obvious na nyan noh....
anyway ayun unreachable pa din siya
merong isang reachable person as of now pero ayoko i- entertain "don't entertain such feelings" ika nga...
hello?! wala na ako time sa mga ganyan
kahit kaya pagkain ko nakakalimutan ko na
nagiging sagabal na xa sa aking research life
laman ako ng library or ng pharm
syenpre umuuwi pa rin naman ako sa bahay
... well in fairness kabisado ko na ang bawat sulok ng pharm at ng u lib
mahal na mahal ko yung lib kaht mainit at mejo mabaho sa reserve section
the relevance?.....ahhh dont entertain such things.....deadma nalang tayo,,,,
hihihihihihiiii
cge aral pa ako...
akalain mo nga naman nka blog pa akokahit dami ko pa gagawin...paano nagising ako... hindi ko na matiis chineck ko ulit profile ni KAS...ayan napaka obvious naman noh>?!
nakakainis para siyang model ng Vicky belo or dermastrata pag pawis siya.... hindi siya mukhang haggard grrrrr as compared to me...
well naalala ko lang siya for a while
despite those thing
DI PA AKO NAKAKAGAWA NG ALKALIMERY AT NAGAARAL SA EXAM AT DAME KO PA GAGAWIN PERO NAGKANERVE PAKO I- CHECK PROFILE NIYA
BWAAHAHAHA
minsan lang naman eh huhuhu (hehe)
malalim na ang gabi at antok na ako
dAMi ginagawa
di na nila naisip na hindi lang ako si joanna bilang studyante...
ako rin si joanna bilang
anak
kapatid
kaibigan
puede ring magliwaliw at magpahinga.... kaya nga weekend eh!
bakit parang pumapasok pa din ako kahit weekend?!
7 days a week ata pasok eh!
gosh gosh!
luxury na matulog ng 5 hours naiiyak nako masyado na matagal un... dapat 4hours lang pababa...
dami na pumansin ng face ko na hagard at ang laki ng mga bugssss... mukha na ngang mga beetle eh
pero actually may mga mas malala pa saakin ung mga may Stat at Phychem... na natake ko na
bwahaha so mas mapalad pa pala ako...kaya ano dapat sabihin ko?
Chicken lang toh!kayang kaya (pero deep inside....)
hindi kaya ko toh!di nga ako full load eh!i can do this!
God... Help us!
napansin ko na napapadalas na ang pag- iling- iling ko mag- isa.
ibig sabihin sinasabi ko sa sarili ko na "hindi, Joanna, focus!wag mo isipin yun"....
waaaah bakit ganon!?pag lalo mong nilalayuan matukso,,, tsaka siya lumalapit....!
kanina lang umiiling ako sabi ko "no!no!"
biglang paglingon ko hayaan nasa mukha ko na yung "tuksong" iniiwasan ko
sabi ko sa sarili ko "waaah!bakit ganon?! no nga eh bakit biglang nasa harap ko na?!"
work of the debil,,,,.
debil debil!
grabe ang hirap harapin ang temptation.... waaah
sabi ko wala na pero natempt pa rin ako i-check yung profile niya nyaaaK!
grabe naiinis ako sa sarili ko... but that won't stop me from doing my best!grrrrrrrrrrrr
kakauwi ko lang from 5-7pm na class sa biochem at kasabay ko umuwi sila justin,jordan(gorge) at ruffa.... super laugh trip ...at dami ko narealize
1. ang sarap kasama bakla lalo na pag pagod ka .... masarap tumawa.... napag- usapan namin ni ruffa na ang usual na napag-uusapan namin ay akads lagi.... naisip ko tuloy kung ano mga iniisip nung mga tumitingin samin sa lrt ...siguro "ano ba tong mga batang to ang nerdy naman" kaya paminsan- minsan naalala ko maging normal ulit.... hindi puro akads pinag- uusapan.... so that means i have been nerdy lately...ay hindi lang....since nag pharmacy ako...
2. nakausap ko si master co kanina at sabi niya isa lang ang section sa phch137 lab nila hindi dahil sa puno na or what.... kundi dahil kasya na lahat ng mga regular 4th year sa lab na yun.... so ang regular 4th year mga 20 something?nyaak natakot ata ako don... naisip ko pano pako makakapag pataas ng grade eh galing na kay master Co un at sabi niya nun di na siya CS.... huhuhu
3. Nanood ako ng news at sabi walang cr ang mga bata sa public school. ang ratio sa highschool ay 1 cr is to 90 students.... kamusta naman
---- so sa mga sinabi ko siguro mahihinuha na "eh ano naman ngayon?>
b.)parang nawalan ako ng pag- asang magpataas ng grade pero nung makita ko yung news na yun naisip ko na mas mapald parin ako kaya dapat huwag kong isipin na "kawawa naman ako,nahihirapan ako" kasi at least ako nakakapag- aral sa magandang school at dapat di ko sayangin yung opportunity makapag- aral. cr nalang di pa namin ma provide... hello!21ST Century na .... nakakabasag- puso lang talaga....
kaya kahit pagod na ako,energized na ako mag- aral kasi kaming mga estudyante ay may malaking misyon na sana balang araw makatulong kaming nakapag- aral... kahit man lang sa pagtulong sa pagbigay ng palikuran sa aming kapwa....walang imposible sa mga naniniwala at may determinasyon!
at sabi nga ni sir glenn "grades lang yan, ang importante ay ang integridad ng tao" hindi yun matutumbasan ng uno....
sumaglit na naman ako habang nag- aaral para sa quiz .... medyo napurga lang ako sa kakabasa kasi ang kapal ng readings eh quiz lang naman na baka 20 items lang... ang malaking tanong ay kung alin kaya sa mga nabasa ko ang lalabas?or may lalabas kaya sa binasa ko?ehehe mahirap ata yan... dami ginagawa sa school at sa youth work kaya todo busy na nga ako. Minsan gingawa mo nalang ang mga bagay out of responsibility... "eh kasi kailangan eh..." pero sa totoo lang kung may pagkakataon ayaw mo na mag- aral kung hindi lang rin kailangan para sa mabuting kinabukasan...
pero ang totoong issue ay.... gusto mo ba talagang matuto? mag-aaral ka kaya kahit hindi required? kunyari kung maganda pa rin ang buhay mo kahit di ka mag- aral,,, sa tingin mo mag- aaral ka pa rin kaya>? dapat lang dahil paano natin ma-appreciate ang mga bagay sa ating paligid kung hindi naman natin ito naintindihan>?God made things of complexity at responsibility natin na alamin ang mga bagay sa paligid natin dahil ginawa niya tayong tagapamahala....
personally may mga subjects na ayaw ko talaga at tinanong ko kung anong point ng pag- aaral ng mga ito?pero ngayon unti- unti kong nababagkus na ang bawat bagay na pinag- aaral ko ay mahalaga pala upang maintindihan ko ang mga bagay at mamulat ang mga mata ko sa ganda ng buhay natin dito. Kasi pag mas naintindihan mo kung gaano ka- complex or ka-simple ang mga bagay, mas na- appreciate mo na ang mga bagay na ginagalawan mo.
ah!kaya pala... ang problema pala noon ay nag- aaral lang ako dahil kailangan, hindi dahil sa gusto ko matuto... sa kagustuhan kong pumasa lang... basta masabing naaral ko pero hindi tumagos kung ano ba talaga yung pinag- aaralan ko... kaya yan tuloy... pag di mo mahal yung ginagawa mo, wag ka nang mag- expect na mamahalin ka rin base sa mga resulta nito. Minsan di naman grades lang eh.. higit pa sa mga nakuha mong marka,,, mas magandang sabihin na naintindihan mo talaga yung ginawa mo at sinapuso mo... don ka lang matututo maging masaya sa ginagawa mo... huwag mo isiping pahirap lang... pero natututo ka dito.
BUSY talaga di nako makanood haaay naninibago ata ako grabe....nako sumaglit lang ako hay napaka excting ng buhay dahil sa mga prelabs , post labs, home work, problem sets at quizzes.... but we dont lose hope because all of these are just testing our character!yeah!
naninibago ata katawan ko 2nd day palang sobrang bagsak na katawan ko sa school...
tulog ako agad pagka uwi....
pero kailangan pa mag- aral.... aja aja!
namili ako notebook kanina at lagi kong binibili yung refill na paper na yun pero ngayon ko lang to nabasa...
"The quality of a person's life is in direct proportion to his commitment to excellence, regardless of the chosen field of endeavour."
kaya kahit gaano pa kahirap basta determined ka i-pursue ang excellence, walang imposible.
may malaki akong narealize ngayong summer, at yun ang pag fo-focus. kasi natutunan ko na kahit gaano pa ako nagpuyat pero yun bang abot kamay mo na yung tagumpay pero hindi mo lang sineryoso, mawawala lahat ng pinaghirapan mo.
Nung pumasok ako para mag enroll, ang dami ko na namang nakitang temptation, nakakatawa nga kasi literal ko ngang iniiling ang ulo ko at sinasabi ko sa sarili ko na FOCUS.... yung nga lang nakakahiya pag may nakakita saakin na ginagawa ko yun hehe pero on fairness, effective siya. Grabe ginive- up ko na halos lahat ng dvd ko na pinapanood at binigay ko lahat kay kenvee. waaah koleksyon ko kaya yung mga yun pero dapat eh kasi may mga bagay na hindi naman talaga masama pero kailangan nating tanggalin dahil hindi naman ito nakakatulong sa ating paglago. Kailangan ko talagang malagpasan tong 3rd year na to (pero 4th year nako academically!) ok fine sorry i have to get over it!basta walang madedelay kahit sana sa mga blockmates ko man lang. Kailangan ko nang magseryoso dahil nakita ko dalwang pahina nalang ng papel ang 3rd year saamin. Lagas na nga. At sa tingan ko mas masasala pa. Ang maganda lang don may mga natake na kasi ako na earlier subjects kaya mas konti ang subject ko sa mga batch '06.
Well medyo di pa rin ako get over sa friday 5-7 dahil di ko maatendan yung Class T. di ko parin maintindihan kung bakit nangyari yun kasi feel ko nag- go signal na si Lord para umatend ako dun once a week lang naman every friday,6:30 pm, tapos yun pa nangyari huhuhu, pero kung yun ang will ni Lord wala na nga siguro ako magagawa.
Wish ko lang this sem talagang mag stay focused ako...........and for the rest of my life.......
waaah!bkait ganon monday at friday ko hanggang 7pm grrrrr
ok pa sana yung sa monday!
pero kung sa friday pano ako makaka- attend ng class t?!!!!grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr
Lord why did you let this happen?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!huhuhuhu
im so sad waaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
pasukan na naman... ready na ba ako?
paparating nA ang realidad at start na naman ang totoong labanan hahaha
fighting!
i love ouran highschool host club! just can't get enough of comedy series!
even nodame cantabile!
Wow! a happy news for us after Patricia Evangelista before.
PROUDLY FILIPINO!
FISH MUCUS AND FOOT FUNGUS
by Gian Dapul
When I was in 6th grade, I hated Mathematics. You would have, too, if you had my teacher. He would drop huge workbooks on our tables and croak, “Thirty problems, fifty minutes.” A lot of these problems seemed unsolvable, so we complained: “Sir, there are no answers to these!” But then he’d reply, “To every question there is an answer, to every problem there is a solution.”
Although I’m only sixteen years old and an incoming 4th year high school student, I know that my country has more problems than any Mathematics book. Strangely enough, the answers to some of our problems are fish mucus and foot fungus. These seemingly improbable items are products of what we call scientific research.
Research turns our guesses into real knowledge, serving as the sifting pan of our hypotheses. It challenges what we assume, because, as they say, if you only learn from what you ASS-UME, you make an “ass” out of”u” and “me”.
In the early 1800s, someone warned that the streets of London would be filled with horse manure due to the uncontrolled use of horse-drawn carriages. Of course, that never happened. Combustion engines,products of research and invention, replaced horses, and the manure piled up in Parliament instead.
While on the subject, few people know that the most expensive coffee in the world is taken from the droppings of the Asian Palm Civet found in the Philippines and Indonesia. The small mammal excretes the coffee berries it eats, and forest trackers recycle the fruity feces to create what is known as Kopi Luwak in Indonesia or Kape Alamid in our country. Research has led to a synthetic process that simulates the droppings’ exotic flavor and quality.
So, who’s had coffee with their breakfast? Well, soon nobody will have had coffee and breakfast if the looming global food crisis worsens.Are you all feeling fine? Well, nobody might be fine for long if some new disease creeps up on us.
Health can be enhanced and life can be extended. The nudibranch, a beautiful, soft-bodied creature unfairly called a “sea slug” — a favorite among underwater photographers for its marvelous colors and shapes — has actually been used in tumor research. Samples of fish mucus have also displayed certain antibacterial properties.
And as the Home Shopping Network would say, “Wait! There’s more.”
Certain types of infectious fungi that coat some of your toes here form beneficial relationships that support plant growth. The International Rice Research Institute based in the Philippines continues to develop ways to improve rice growth and help alleviate the current food crisis.
New challenges are coming, and they will always confront us. What we need is an army of scientific researchers that will help find the solutions in advance. I want to be part of that army that would cross the new frontiers first.
If only we could make science fairs and contests as popular as the thriving “Pop Idol” franchise. Although I’m not sure if Simon Cowell’s sardonic comments will sit well with my peers. But we need the same hard-hitting passion in research and invention.
To conduct research is to be innovative; avant-garde. Researchers are like artists with test tubes and lab gowns instead of paintbrushes and smocks. When I graduate from the Philippine Science High School next year, I want to begin my “masterpiece” and apply for a university degree in Biochemistry.
But sometimes, I am discouraged by those who say that a researcher from a Third-World nation is like a Jesuit adhering to a vow of poverty, or worse, like a Benedictine monk observing the vow of chastity. It is indeed a challenge, but it’s also another frontier to cross, for me and many young people like me.
We Filipinos are well known for their dedication to service, in foreign homes, hospitals and FISH MUCUS AND FOOT FUNGUS
by Gian Dapul
When I was in 6th grade, I hated Mathematics. You would have, too, if you had my teacher. He would drop huge workbooks on our tables and croak, “Thirty problems, fifty minutes.” A lot of these problems seemed unsolvable, so we complained: “Sir, there are no answers to these!” But then he’d reply, “To every question there is an answer, to every problem there is a solution.”
Although I’m only sixteen years old and an incoming 4th year high school student, I know that my country has more problems than any Mathematics book. Strangely enough, the answers to some of our problems are fish mucus and foot fungus. These seemingly improbable items are products of what we call scientific research.
Research turns our guesses into real knowledge, serving as the sifting pan of our hypotheses. It challenges what we assume, because, as they say, if you only learn from what you ASS-UME, you make an “ass” out of”u” and “me”.
In the early 1800s, someone warned that the streets of London would be filled with horse manure due to the uncontrolled use of horse-drawn carriages. Of course, that never happened. Combustion engines,products of research and invention, replaced horses, and the manure piled up in Parliament instead.
While on the subject, few people know that the most expensive coffee in the world is taken from the droppings of the Asian Palm Civet found in the Philippines and Indonesia. The small mammal excretes the coffee berries it eats, and forest trackers recycle the fruity feces to create what is known as Kopi Luwak in Indonesia or Kape Alamid in our country. Research has led to a synthetic process that simulates the droppings’ exotic flavor and quality.
So, who’s had coffee with their breakfast? Well, soon nobody will have had coffee and breakfast if the looming global food crisis worsens.Are you all feeling fine? Well, nobody might be fine for long if some new disease creeps up on us.
Health can be enhanced and life can be extended. The nudibranch, a beautiful, soft-bodied creature unfairly called a “sea slug” — a favorite among underwater photographers for its marvelous colors and shapes — has actually been used in tumor research. Samples of fish mucus have also displayed certain antibacterial properties.
And as the Home Shopping Network would say, “Wait! There’s more.”
Certain types of infectious fungi that coat some of your toes here form beneficial relationships that support plant growth. The International Rice Research Institute based in the Philippines continues to develop ways to improve rice growth and help alleviate the current food crisis.
New challenges are coming, and they will always confront us. What we need is an army of scientific researchers that will help find the solutions in advance. I want to be part of that army that would cross the new frontiers first.
If only we could make science fairs and contests as popular as the thriving “Pop Idol” franchise. Although I’m not sure if Simon Cowell’s sardonic comments will sit well with my peers. But we need the same hard-hitting passion in research and invention.
To conduct research is to be innovative; avant-garde. Researchers are like artists with test tubes and lab gowns instead of paintbrushes and smocks. When I graduate from the Philippine Science High School next year, I want to begin my “masterpiece” and apply for a university degree in Biochemistry.
But sometimes, I am discouraged by those who say that a researcher from a Third-World nation is like a Jesuit adhering to a vow of poverty, or worse, like a Benedictine monk observing the vow of chastity. It is indeed a challenge, but it’s also another frontier to cross, for me and many young people like me.
We Filipinos are well known for their dedication to service, in foreign homes, hospitals and hotels. In the hotel, I found three Filipinos working there. I want to be one of the pioneers that will make the Philippines known for its excellence in scientific research,as part of the driving force that will expand our horizons towards tomorrow. And I intend as a 1to have a lot of fun while doing it.
Going back to my math teacher, I eventually realized that, well, he was right. As he said, “To every question there is an answer, to every problem there is a solution.” We just have to go looking for the right ones. Who knows? Maybe one day we’ll be answering the questions that haven’t been asked yet.
Why does it even take a foreigner to point out the problems of us, Filipinos? true enough almost everything mentioned broke my heart because its true. Sometimes we do not take pride of being a Filipino. After reading this most of the Filipinos reacted violently, but isn't it that the truth hurts? When someone criticize us we start to flare our nostrils. But we don't realize that maybe what they said is true. I just remembered in one episode of "desperate housewives'" wherein it offended the medical community on implying a low grade of medical knowledge here so if you have a Filipino diploma in medicine, you're not just credible. It offended me but I thought for a while that we ourselves made it look like that to them. Isn't it true that you can buy diplomas in Recto or Quiapo? This is not the first time that a foreigner commented on us Filipinos. It was a Korean before who said that our problem is we don't love our country. As a student some people might even say "yuck that's so korny!" but saying its korny or baduy talking about these things reflects our lack of nationality. I know there a re still people who do but its sad that we can only say it but can't do it. Just look at our streets with garbage, it reflects our lack of love in our country. I think this essay of Barth is an eye opener to reflect ourselves over. We can react so violently about it but nothing will happen. Its good if we accept criticisms from time to time through the "others" eyes because we sometimes can't accept it and define what state we are in.
The Philippines Through the Eyes of a Foreigner
By Barth Suretsky
Atin Ito Philippine NewsFeature April 2007
My decision to move to Manila was not a precipitous one. I used to work in New York as an outside agent of Philippines Air Line, and have been coming to the Philippines since August, 1982. I was so impressed with the country, and with the interesting people I met, some of whom have become very close friends to this day, that I asked for and was granted a year's sabbatical from my teaching job in order to live in the Philippines
I arrived here on August 21, 1983, several hours after Ninoy Aquino was shot, and remained here until June of 1984. During that year I visited many parts of the country, from as far north as Laoag to as far south as Zamboanga, and including Palawan. I became deeply immersed in the history and culture of the archipelago, and an avid collector of tribal antiquities from both northern Luzon and Mindanao.
In subsequent years I visited the Philippines in 1985, 1987, and 1991, before deciding to move here permanently in 1998. I love this country, but not uncritically, and that is the purpose of this article. First, however, I will say that I would not consider living anywhere else in Asia , no matter how attractive certain aspects of other neighboring countries may be.
To begin with, and this is most important, with all its faults, the Philippines is still a democracy, more so than any other nation in Southeast Asia . Despite gross corruption, the legal system generally works, and if ever confronted with having to employ it, I would feel much more safe trusting the courts here than in any other place in the surrounding countries.
The press here is unquestionably the most unfettered and freewheeling in Asia , and I do not believe that is hyperbole in any way ! And if any one thing can be used as a yardstick to measure the extent of the democratic process in any given country in the world, it is the extent to which the press is free.
Nevertheless, the Philippines is a flawed democracy, and the flaws are deeply rooted in the Philippine psyche. I will elaborate. The basic problem seems to me, after many years of observation, to be national inferiority complex, a disturbing lack of pride in being Filipino.
Toward the end of April I spent eight days in Vietnam , visiting Hanoi , Hue , and Ho Chi Minh City (HCMC). I am certainly no expert on Vietnam , but what I saw could not be denied : I saw a country ravaged as no other country has been in this century by thirty years of continuous and incredibly barbaric warfare.
When the Vietnam War ended in April, 1975, the country was totally devastated. Yet in the past 25 years the nation has healed and rebuilt itself almost miraculously ! The countryside has been replanted and reforested. Hanoi and HCMC have been beautifully restored.
The opera house in Hanoi is a splendid restoration of the original, modeled after the Opera in Paris , and the gorgeous Second Empire Theatre, on the main square of HCMC is as it was when built by the French a century ago.
The streets are tree-lined, clean, and conducive for strolling. Cafes in the French style proliferate on the wide boulevards of HCMC. I am not
praising the government of Vietnam , which still has a long way to travel on the road to democracy, but I do praise, and praise unstintingly, the pride of the Vietnamese people.
It is due to this pride in being Vietnamese that has enabled its citizenry to undertake the mi racle of restoration that I describe above.
When I returned to Manila , I became so depressed that I was actually physically ill for days thereafter. Why ? Well, let's go back to a period when the Philippines resembled the Vietnam of 1975. It was 1945, the end of World War II, and Manila, as well as many other cities, lay in ruins.
As a matter of fact, it may not be generally known, but Manila was the second most destroyed city in the entire war; only Warsaw was more demolished.
But to compare Manila in 1970, twenty five years after the end of the war, with HCMC, 25 years after the end of its war, is a sad exercise indeed. Far from restoring the city to its former glory, by 1970 Manila was well on its way to being the most tawdry city in Southeast Asia . And since that time the situation has deteriorated alarmingly.
We have a city full of street people, beggars, and squatters. We have a city that floods sections whenever there is a rainstorm, and that loses
electricity with every clap of thunder. We have a city full of potholes, and on these unrepaired roads we have traffic situation second to none in the the world for sheer unmanageability.
We have rude drivers, taxis that routinely refuse to take passengers because of "many traffic !" The roads are also cursed with pollution spewing buses in disreputable states of repair, and that ultimate anachronism, the jeepney!
We have an educational system that allows children to attend schools without desks or books to accommodate them. Teachers, even college professors, are paid salaries so disgracefully low that it's a wonder that anyone would want to go into the teaching profession in the first place.
We have a war in Mindanao that nobody seems to have a clue how to settle. The only policy to deal with the war seems to be to react to what happens daily, with no long range plan whatever. ; I could go on and on, but it is an endeavor so filled with futility that it hurts me to go on. It hurts me because, in spite of everything, I love the Philippines
Maybe it will sound simplistic, but to go back to what I said above, it is my unshakable belief that the fundamental thing wrong with this country is a lack of pride in being Filipino.
A friend once remarked to me, laconically : "All Filipinos want to be something else. The poor ones want to be American, and the rich ones all want to be Spaniards. Nobody wants to be Filipino."
That statement would appear to be a rather simplistic one, and perhaps it is. However, I know one Filipino who refuses to enter a theater until the national anthem has stopped being played because he doesn't want to honor his own country, and I know another one who thinks that history stopped dead in 1898 when the Spaniards departed. While it is certainly true that these represent extreme examples of national denial, the truth is not a pretty picture.
Filipinos tend to worship, almost slavishly, everything foreign. If it comes from Italy or France it has to be better than anything made here. If the idea is American or German it has to be superior to anything that Filipinos can think up for themselves. Foreigners are looked up to and
idolized.
Foreigners can go anywhere without question. In my own personal experience, I remember attending recently an affair at a major museum here. I had forgotten to bring my invitation. But while Filipinos entering the museum were checked for invitations, I was simply waived through. This sort of thing happens so often here that it's just accepted as routine.
All of these things, the illogical respect given to foreigners simply because they are not Filipinos, the distrust and even disrespect shown to
any homegrown merchandise, the neglect of anything Philippine, the rudeness of taxi drivers, the ill manners shown by many Filipinos are all symptomatic of a lack of self love, of respect for and love of the country in which they were born, and worst of all, a static mind-set in regard to finding ways to improve the situation.
Most Filipinos, when confronted with evidence of governmental corruption, political chicanery, or gross exploita tion on the part of the business community, simply shrug their shoulders, mutter "bahala na," and let it go at that.
It is an oversimplification to say this, but it is not without a grain of truth to say that Filipinos feel downtrodden because they allow themselves to feel downtrodden. No pride.
One of the most egregious examples of this lack of pride, this uncaring attitude to their own past, is the wretched state of surviving architectural landmarks in Manila and elsewhere. During the American period, many beautiful and imposing buildings were built, in what we now call the "art deco" style (although incidentally, that was not contemporary term; it was coined only in the 1960s). These were beautiful edifices, mostly erected during, or just before, the Commonwealth period.
Three, which are still standing, are the Jai Alai Building, the Metropolitan Theater, and the Rizal Stadium. Fortunately, due to the truly noble efforts of my friend John Silva, the Jai Alai Building will now be saved. But unless something is done to the most beautiful and original of these three masterpieces of pre-war Philippine architecture, the Metropolitan Theater, it will disintegrate. The Rizal Stadium is in equally wretched shape.
When the wreckers' ball destroyed Frank Lloyd Wright's Imperial Hotel in Tokyo , and New York City 's most magnificent building, Pennsylvania Station, both in 1963, Ada Louise Huxtable, then the architectural critic of The New York Times, wrote: "A disposable culture loses the right to call itself a civilization at all !" How right she was ! (Fortunately, the destruction of Pennsylvania Station proved to the sacrificial catalyst that resulted in the creation of New York's Landmark Commission. Would there be such a commission created for Manila ... ?)
Are there historical reasons for this lack of national pride ? We can say that until the arrival of the Spaniards there was no sense of a unified
archipelago constituted as one country. True. We can also say that the high cultures of the nations in the region seemed, unfortunately, to have bypassed the Philippines ; there are no Angkors, no Ayuttayas, no Borodudurs. True. Centuries of contact with the high cultur es of the
Khmers and the Chinese, had, except for the proliferation of Song dynasty pottery found throughout the archipelago, no noticeable effect. True. But all that aside, what was here ? To begin with, the ancient rice terraces, now threatened with disintegration, incidentally, was an incredible feat of engineering for so-called "primitive" people.
As a matter of fact, when I first saw them in 1984, I was almost as awe-stricken was I was when I first laid eyes on the astonishing Inca city
of Machu Picchu , high in the Peruvian Andes. The degree of artistry exhibited by the various tribes of the Cordillera of Luzon is testimony to a remarkable culture, second to none in the Southeast Asian region. As for Mindanao , at the other end of the archipelago, an equally high degree of artistry has been manifest for centuries in woodcarving, weaving and metalwork. However, the most shocking aspect of this lack of national pride, even identity, endemic in the average Filipino, is the appalling ignorance of the history of the archipelago since unified by Spain and named Filipinas. The remarkable stories concerning the courageous repulsion of Dutch and British invaders from the 16th through the 18th centuries, even the origins of the Independence of the late 19th century, are hardly known by the average Filipin o in any meaningful way. And thanks to fifty years of American brainwashing, it is few and far between the number of Filipinos who really know -- or even care -- about the duplicity employed by the Americans and Spaniards to sell out and make meaningless the very independent state that Aguilnaldo declared on June 12, 1898.
A people without a sense of history is a people doomed to be unaware of their own identity. It is sad to say, but true, that the vast majority of
Filipinos fall into this category. Without a sense of who you are how can you possibly take any pride in who you are ? These are not oversimplifications.
On the contrary, these are the root problems of the Philippine inferiority complex referred to above. Until the Filipinos take pride in being
Filipino these ills of the soul will never be cured. If what I have written here can help, even in the smallest way, to make the Filipino aware of just who he is, who he was, and who he can be, I will be one happy expat indeed !
I just came from Cavite... when I was watching the news, Im so sick of it because I kept on hearing the same problems everytime.then coincidentally i have read this news and I was so down because I have read about the selling of kidneys by the poor people, but the money that they receive is so low and that their rights are already violated with no post operation check- up for the people who sold their kidneys. And how about them?after receiving their money, no one got richer or made their lives more comfortable. You see I think even if you multiply the poor people's money by ten times, it would'nt actually make their lives much easier. they are still gonna get back from the slums because there is a poverty of the soul. nakaahon ka na nga, pero bumabalik ka pa rin sa dati dahil hindi ka natututo. Definitely one can say many excuses, or blame others for the reason of their situation, of why they are poor but definetely its not money that makes one rich, because if only money can solve it, then I bet all the people who receives their one million retirement pay is richer now. There's something about us that makes us Filipinos like this. Actually we're living in a vey rich country, lots of natural resources, but then we are. still poor, still, we have lots of eXcuses. But look at Singapore? no natural resources but one of the most economically stable countries. But still i bet one will still find more and more excuses. Let us say one blames the government. But didn't Rizal said, "tal pueblo, tal gobyerno?" the government only manifests its own people. Let's just not look on the works of our dear senators and mayors, just look at our barangay tanods, do they really work on their jobs?bakit kahit basura nalang hindi pa maayos? But the most sad part is that WE JUST DON'T CARE. A lot of us wants to leave the country to find a better future. I myself am studying in one of the best universities in this country and most of my friends wants to migrate to work abroad. OO nga naman sabi nila, sino nga bang yayaman dito?eh dun nalang ako sa malakas magbayad sayang naman kasi yung talino ko. You see even the most educated people doesn't solve the problems of this country. UP, Ateneo does not solve it. those who got their masterals or phd's did not help this country to prosper either. They just want to live good lives and leave this country or be a politician so wise enough to lure the money of its people because of their intelligence. We can see that nobody wants to be a Filipino. I myself before, when I am watching other Asian channels am so facinated with their culture and wished to stay their, or get married with a Korean or Chinese. We have a damaged culture, we don't have a self identity anymore as a Filipino so whatever identity other countries tell about us, we're just about to swallow it hard kasi most of the time totoo naman. Ang pag- asa daw ng bayan ay kaming mga kabataan. puede rin kaming nasa UP. pero sa UP palang gusto nang magsialisan, kasi praktikal nga naman. Pero wala nga bang uunlad dito?o kaya naman sinabi rin nang ibang tao na bagsak din ang buhay at di nagsikap na walang pag- asa dito ang pinapakinggan namin? pero kahit naman pumunta sila sa Amerika o saan pang bansa... masaya ba sila?siguro yung iba pero ako yung mga kamag- anak ko dong iba naghihirap din naman. yung lawyer dito, factory worker nalang don, sabi kasi niya at least nasa States daw... grabe ganito na ba kami kababa? wala na kaming dignidad kahit ano nalang, ayaw kasi naming maghirap, ayaw naming mag- aral. Wala na kaming mga pangarap basta makaalis lang dito at takasan ang problema dito. eh di kung ayaw nyo dito di wag.... basta balang araw pag- unlad ng Pilipinas huwag na kayong babalik hahaha. Sino sino rin bang magtutulungan kundi kami ring mga Pilipino, pero ang masakit nga don, mismong Pilipino ang maghahatak sayo pababa, wala kasi kaming sense of nationhood. Kaya siguro ok nalang kaming tawagin bilang domestic helper, kasi yun ang ibigsabihin ng Filipino sa Greece Oxford dictionary. No offense sa domestic helper dahil marangal naman na trabaho yun kung dun ka talaga, pero di naman ibig sabihin na dapat ganun kaming lahat.
Ako bilang kabataan nahihiya nga ako sa sarili ko kasi di ko pa naitanong , "oo nga no, ano na nga bang nagawa ko para sa bansa ko?" ang Korea nga may prayer mountain sila na ang ipagdarasal lang don ay ang bansa nila, kami mahal ba namin ang bansa namin? bakit ayaw naming umunlad, iba rin naman kasi ang maunlad sa mayaman lang. Kasi pag mayaman lang, para saakin, may pera ka pero di ka masaya, maaari mong matagpuan ang taas ngunit tuwing gabi natatakot ka na baka manakawan ka. Walang katahimikan, laging may takot at lungkot sa puso mo. Ano nga ba ang pagiging maunlad? Yun yung para saakin ay matutulungan mo muna ang sarili mo na umunlad sa sariling sikap at pag nakaahon kana, tutulungan mo naman ang ibang tao na umunlad hanggang maging domino effect lang. IIsipin mo lang rin naman kasi ang kapwa at bansa mo yun lang naman. Pero may nag- iisip kaya nang ganito?ilan kaya? nalulungkot lang rin ako dahil kabattan daw ang pag- asa ng bayan. Pero ano namang ginagawa namin? Yung iba, pipila sa abs- cbn para maging bagong artista, baka sakaling madiscover kaya titigil nalang muna sa pag- aaral. Yung iba basta may uso dapat laging gagayahin!pag di ka -in, sorry nalang, you're out of the picture, tapos yung iba naman mayaman, kaya pa bar- bar nalang or punta sa embassy, at idol ang Gucci gang. Dun naman sa mga matatalinong iba... pagkagraduate gusto na yumaman at yumaman at yun lang. Pero meron kayang gustong paunlarin ang kapwa niya? may nangangarap kaya na sana balang araw maging kasing unlad din namin ang Japan?Korea? Alam ko meron pa din pero siguro konti lang. Dati isa ako sa mga gustong sumama sa -in nung high school ako kaya kokopyahin ko yung mga sikat, pero pag tinitingnan ko ngayon nakakahiya pala ako non, ang babaw ko pala. Nahihiya ako sa sarili ko kasi pang 398 na nga lang ang UP sa world ranking tapos di pa ako naging College scholar, isa lamang akong mediocre kaya huwag na tayong magtaka kung tingin nang ibang banyaga sa atin ay mga islanders. Ang sakit lang talaga, pero siguro kung kukuwento ko to lahat sa kaibigan ko baka pagtawanan niya lang ako at sabihin na epekto ito ng kaka nood ko. Sino nga bang magseseryoso sa ganitong bagay? Ha? mag- aaral ka para sa kapwa mo at para sa bansa mo>? kaya dito nalang at malaya kong maisusulat ang nararamdaman ko.
Maaaring sanhi ito ng pag- iisa ko sa Cavite, pero narealize ko mabuti din pala yon para lumalim naman ang pananaw ko sa buhay. Minsan kailangan din nating magreflect. Salamat sa Diyos sa pagpapakita ng mga bagay na mas malawak kaysa sa mga iniisip lamang natin.
WHOAH!IONLY 2 SCHOOLS FROM THE PHILIPPINES QUALIFIED IN
Times Higher Education - QS World University Rankings 2007 - Top 500 Universities!
ONLY UNIVERSITY OF THE PHILIPPINES!
AND ATENEO DE MANILA UNIVERSITY!!
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WHOAH!WHAT HAPPENED TO US?! WHERE'S DLSU?!OR UST??
AT BAKIT 398 NALANG ANG UP?!
sad isnt it?!im so sad the quality of education here is very poor!
so one must excel na grabe! I WANT TO STUDY ABROAD AFTERWARDS!
im a bit sad because ISWAK 2 aired its last episode already... waaah i want to buy the original copy already! i have to save!
and i also finished watching Nodame Cantabile, grabe puro marathon !kasi weekends lang uwi ko sa bahay sa qc coz im staying in cavite with my dad at pag uwi ko pa dami rin activities sa youth at sa bahay.... ang ganda lang kasi nung Nodame kasi bukod sa entertaining na, about music pa siya at yung mga artista alam mo talagang educated sila dahil ang gagaling magpiano... kakalungkot lang kasi if we compare sa mga palabas dito parang walang kuwenta,though its entertaining,hanggang don nalang walang laman....
sana someday mas maging cultured kami kahit sa palabas nalang, but actually it reflects the people eh sa mga palabas na pinapakita namin,does it mean ang alam lang naman ay makipagsampalan?wala kaya kaming alam sa mga piano?kasi sa kanila kakaiba ,entertaining na nga, natuto ka pa,nag-aaspire sila. may dream sila na ma-meet yung full potential nila,,,kami ba aaw namin yun?pero i bet pag ganon yung pinalabas dito lalangawin lang yun... but i really hope....makakagawa din kami ng mga ganon someday at di kami magiging laughing stock ng ibang bansa.
it's summer and im here in cavite
i planned to stay here for two months
to learn driving and i got lessons in the afternoon as usual...
i don't knoiw anyone in that class...o shall i say only one
but it doesn't matter... i have little adjustments here but its ok
i return to qc during the weekends
my gosh i just visited brian gorrel's blog and i just saw what i heard from other people...
it was indeed disgusting and i am so ashamed for what these socialites have done, they are disgracing the filipinos!my gosh! it gets in my nerves!if you don't know this,visit brian's blog...
anyway for now i will just read an autobiography of rizal "the first Filipino" which we can be proud of, not those scumbags! i'm so disappointed!
