~*memories*~

well kakatapos ko lang basahin to

hahaha naalala ko tuloy yung high school days ko nakakatawa talaga haha pero talaga namang may sense of humor yung mga pinagsasasabi ni bob ong.. naalala ko yung mga saya, hirap, lungkot,galit nung highschool ako hahaha andun na yung mga pangaasar,kalokohan,aral-aral hahaha(thinking.....)

naalala ko nung 1st year ako saya.. nasa regular section ako noon at mga kalokohan mga kaklase ko.. parang ako nalang isa sa mga pinaka matitino.. eh kasi nangako ako sa sarili ko na magsisipag nako sa high school at magiging seryoso sa pag-aaral.. sa awa ng Diyos,, nag 1st honor pako.. wahaha pero kung sa creamsection.. ako lang ang una sa pinakahuli na honor nila.. ayos lang.. at least di naman kumplikado ang buhay sa mga weirdo at nerd don.. (pananaw ng mga classmates ko) don ko nadanasan ang iba't- ibang mga kalokohan ng mga tao.. minsan nga nagsawa na akong magpakatino kasi ako ung ginugulangan nila eh haha kasi lahat ng homework ko kalat sa buong klase.. pero kala nila?aba mautak ata kami ng kaibigan ko!minsan sa finals na.. at walang mga notes ang classmates ko.. pina photocopy buongmga notes namin.. sabi namin kami nalang magxerox.. magbayad lang sila.. di nila alam.. may tubo yun haha!bakit ba?eh kami nagpakahirap dun noh!tapos sila kokopya lang at di na nagisip?haha eh di may balato pa ako dun!(haha wag maingay!) pero matatgal na yun noh..
... pero sa totoo lang mas nakakaawa sila dahil wala silang natutunan kundi mag paganda.. mag blush- on at gumawa ng kung anu- anong kabalastugan.. mas nakakaawa yun kesa sa kinokopyahan ka

naalala ko pa non.. one time wala kaming teacher at pinagsabihan kami na walang lalabas ng ibang teacher.. eh nagkataon vice ako nun kaya naman ayaw namin magpalabas kasi yun ang uso dun.. puro cr ang bukang bibig ng mga kaklase ko ewan k0o ba kung anong meron dun sa mahiwagang cr na yun at kinababaliwan nila .. "hndi puede eh!" sabi namin nung presidente.. tapos yung isa kong kaklase maya- maya umuhi sa pader.. yuck!ang baboy!(lalake yun ha.. grabe naman kung babae mahiya naman siya) sabi niya "eh ayaw niyo magpalabas eh!" haay ang buay talaga.. tumawa ka nalang.. tapos yung isa ko pang classmate pinunasan ihi niya nung pang tali sa kurtina (eeewss!) haay..
pero the next year.. nasa cream section na ako.. kinabahan ako dahil sabi nila magiging nerd lang daw ako dun.. aba ewan!pagpasok ko.. kanya - kanyang grupo.. may mga maarte,mukhang anime at kung anu- ano.. well medyo dimure muna ako nung una.. bago eh.. pero habang tumagal umingay na rin ako.. ang aking totoong kulay.. bow.naalala ko ito sa rt ko..(sorry ha walang personalan natawa lang talaga ako)

hahaha naaalala ko pa non katabi ko siya tapos napatitig ako.. tapos naalala ko pa yung sa pic kaya tawa ako ng tawa na parang wala ng bukas.. nagtataka siya.. sabi ko wala lang kasi mapipikon yun eh .. kasi naman caught in the act eh..hahaha kala nila!pinagtripan din nila ako noh!gusto ko mmang ipost yung pic na yun.. gagawin ko namang kahihiyan ang sarili ko.. di bale nalang..
naalala ko pa non.. may project kaming biogas,aba kailangan nang tae for short.. tapos a asign saakinang maglagay nga tae habang pinipicturan.. anak ng tae!natuluan pa ako.. peste!nagpakahirap ako tapos bagsak lang pala yung grade dahil hindi lumabas yung apoy.. tapos nung food fair naalala ko nagluto kami ng kung anu- ano.. tapos ako nagbebenta yung ga ka group ko nasa likod lang.. nyak!napagod ba?pero mas masama naman ang nangyari sa kabilang group.. kasi natapon ung sauce nang ititinda nilang sphaghetti, balita ko non nagpuyat pa nga sila haay kawawang sauce..
well unang year ng adjustment.. putakte!ganon pala sa creamsection..kung dati 1st honor na ko na pa easy- easy lang.. ngayon puro expectation na sa mga teachers.. kala ko wala nang mashihirap dun.. hanggang nung mag 3rd year ako at 4th yr.. mas mahirap pa..

pero habang tumatagal nagiging close naman kami ng classmates ko.. napansin ko na mas naging wild ako(nyaik!) at masaya dahil may mga love teams at kalokohan despite the obstacles ng pag-aaral.. dun ko naintindihan na hindi naman puro nerd ang mga nandun.. tutal ito ang mga facts tungkol dun
1.may dalang libro tuwing recess.. pero sa totoo lang kung akala mo nagaaral kami.. actually di kami nakapag basa kaya babasahin nalang namin
2.minsan props lang(madalas pala) kala mo makakapag-aral ka pero kakain ka nalang at makikipag daldalan
3.para kaming tanga na nagpapraktis sa labas at kung anu- anong ka kornihan ginagawa namain para lang ma impress ang guro.. minsan para na nga kaming nagdadasal na tribo parang may ritwal..para daw unique.. ganyan na rin ako mag-isip nung nalipat ako dito
4.sa classroom ay sobrang wild namin.. nung 2nd year at walang guro ay nagwala kami.. sumayaw lahat sabay-sabay.. nabaliw lahat!ako lang naman ang umupo sa table ng teacher at nagkakakanta parang baliw hanggang sa di k0o namanlayan na nagbabalett na ang iba at ako ay hinahagisan na ng piso.. at nakalagay sa labas "keep- out:mga baliw" parang ganon ba..
5. may nagtetext sa gitna ng kani-kanilang hita para makipagusap kay boypren at meron pang tumawag na nahuli ng guro
6.may tshirt na join forces na ginaya ng ibang section
7.minsan di nila kami naintindihan sabi ba naman may IQ lang daw kami pero walang EQ.. aba guro pa daw nagsbi nun.. naginit mga ulo0 namin.. kala kasi nila puro aral kami.. di naman puro kopyahan nga eh.. kala nila wala kaming social life eh sa totoo nga lang eh umiinom pa ng toma ang mga kamag-aral ko wahahaha(secret lang ha!)
8. madalas na kaming magkaproblema nung 3rd at 4th year nung mas lalo kaming close.. naging sakit kami ng ulo ng mga teachers dahil wala na daw kami galang puro talino nalang ang pinapairal.. sakit naman non.. mababait naman kami kaya joined forces pa rin.. para bang kalaban namin silang lahat kahit regular section outcasts kami eh.. pero go parin ang figthing spirit ng mga loko!yun nga lang sobrang sama na ng image namin.. di naman kami perpekto eh.. taas ng expectation lagi saamin
9.sobrang ingay namin ewan ko ba.. ang aga-aga di ba dapat wala kang gana makipagchikahan pag maaga kasi antok ka pa?pero ako naglalakad palang sa corridor ng 630 am eh nakakarinig na ng malakas na usapan eh ang layo ko pa sa classroom.. kala ko dami tao pero pag dating ko.. mga 5 tao palang ang nasa loob.. hahaha talagang ganon pero isang araw napilitan kaming tumahimik.. buong araw.. kasi araw-araw nalang kaming pinapagalitan.. may nawa-walk out pa nga na teacher dahil sa kaingayan namin.. pero nung araw na yun dahil sa desperado na kami na wag magquiz.. tumahimik kami.. nagkaisa ang lahat aba di mapakali guro namin dahil para kaming nagtago bigla ng mga sungay namin.. para lang wag matuloy ang quiz.. eh mabait naman yuntg guro eh.. ayos pumayag
10.minsan may mga paborito kaming mga guro na sadyang mababait.. kaya pag bday nila ay naghahanda kami.. pero isang beses bday ng isang guro at may quiz kami sa geometry nun.. "nako ano kayang delaying tactic?!"dahil bright kami.. at the fair nun ung mga tira ay niluto namin at hinanda sakanya at pinagkuwento namin siya tungkol sa buhay niya.. aba gumana!nag bell na!at least nausog ang quiz..haay salamat!
11.naranasan na rin namin maging mukhang kakatawa sa harap ng klase para lang maimpress ang teacher na kahit anong effort ay nakasimangot pa rin sa ginawa mo
12.may mga kumakai sa rum.. actually kaming lahat angmasama pa non ang hilig namin sa corniks.. eh pampabaho ng hininga eh minsan tinagao namin sa adviser pero nung nagsalita kami ng sabay-sabay.. aba naamoy at sabi "anong kinakain niyo?" buti nalang mabait siya
13.best ang mga teachers ng 3rd year .. naranasan ko pa makasama ang cool na cool na teacher na sumama pa sa aming concert na pinuntahan na nilagay ko ang ticket na mahal sa payong para makapasok sila sa may mga upuan.. bale nagbayad ako mahal sila 500 lang hahaha
14. lalo na nung last sa taon ay naranasan ko ang mga paghihinagpis sa mga guro.. sobrang puyat nako nun naalala ko.. puro woryy kasi ako kaya ginagawa ko agad.. halos masuka nako sa hirap.. naalala ko 3 hours lang tulig ko nung exam.. mukha na akong losyang sa pagod.. puro hw.. project.. basa ng book.. waah!PARANG sasabog ulo ko kahit recess at lunch di ka na makakakain dahil kulng pa yung oras dun para mag-aral o gumawa ng homework na hindi pa tapos.. ang hinaing "tao rin po kami ms. .... kumakain din kami at natutulog!" kaya m9insan pag dumating ka.. tulog mga tao.. pero ewan ko ba hyper pa rin ang iba at nakukuha pang dumaldal despite the fact na pagod na sila.. syempre may mga tampuhan pang nangyayari sa klase.. may iba daw mayabang.. maarte.. kung anu- ano.. pero 1 percent lang sila sa klase.. the rest.. nagmamahalan..
15. ang di na matiis sa mga huling araw.. aba halos lahat ng mga ms. nung 3rd year ay naging kabaliktaran.. yung iba sabi nila "magmemenoipose na ata sila" yung iba kung anu-ano nang sinasabing names katulad ng "annie B" kasi sumasayaw daw pag gabi,"lilipop"kasi may *** naiiwan na***** sa kanyang ipin(haha takot pa rin isulat!),tsumami.. kasi baka mahigop daw kami... haha and so on... (aba parang makonsensya!) ngayon yun pero dati kung anu- ano nang tawag sa kanila dahil sa hirap.. haay kawawang mga nilalang
16. kahit ma jeerbox ka , umutot,bastos... alam nila at ok lang tanggap ka nila kung ano ka.. di ka na mahihiya dahil ilang taon na kayong magkakasama
17. may ka group ako nung 3rd year kami ay naguusap ng mga ka****** at yung isa ay nagtatakip ng tenga kunwari di nakikinig.. pero kinikilig na pala siya at namumula na ang tenga.. weirdo! minsan pa ay nag volleyball kami at dalawa kaming di marunong at nung tinira niya ay nagalit sakanya iba kong ka group tapos sabi ko "ok lang yan!ako rin di marunong" aba dinamayan ko pa man din! tapos nung napikon na sabi niya sa iba "si joanna kasi eh" aba!!!!!ako na nga nagmagandang loob na umintindi!ako pa sinisi!naasar ako at naginit ang dugo ko "palibasa ang weirdo nia!at lumipat ako ng silya.. pero dati yun.. ngayon siya na ang number one fan ko!(hahaha)
18. nang lastbyear na ako na ang pinagtitripan na baboy or oinky pero nattuwa naman ako.. kaya lang yung leader namin ang tawag sakanya ay bakla.. babae siya pero ganon boses niya.. sobrang napagtitripan.. aba galit din ako datio sakanya dahil nangiindian sa responsibilidad.. ewan ko ba nung naging katabi ko na siya bumait ako sakanya at ako pinaka close nia sa rt ako lang ata ang tinetext niya saamin ng quotes.. (cgro talagang mabait lang ako..wahaha cge na makapal na kung makapal!)

masasaya ang mga araw non.. kahit mahirap .. may patutunguhan.. ngayon college na kami,.. nagkikita pa rin kahit papaano.. pero alam kong di magtatagal at alaala nalang ang matitira.. dahil busy na ang bawat isa sa bagong kaibigan at mga pakikipagsapalaran.. pero mga pipol.. pangako.. di ko makakalimutan lahat.. naging memorable ang bawat araw.. para saakin dahil ang lungkot ay mapapawi pag pumasok ka sa mahiwgang section ng N.. at sana wag mangyari balang araw na hindi na natin makilala ang isa't- isa..

~*mga KaLokohaN pag inLaBabo*~

gusto niyo malaman kung pan0 mainlababo ang isang taong praning at sa una'y magugustuhan niya ang feeling ngunit sa huli ay para bang isusuka niya ang mga pangyayari.. kung pano niya pagsisisihan ang mga nangyari?heto ang kuwento ni loko
1. una, magkagalit muna sila, asar sila sa isa't- isa.. sana nga ay hindi na nakita ni loko si girL dahil nabibwisit na siya sa pagmumukha nito.. pati pag tawa at kahit ano man sakanya.. tapos dyahe pa!ang plastik!naku!wag na n0h!
2. nung nag bagong taon.. siyempre kailangan lahat i-greet mo.. nako wala nang choice si loko kundi itext lahat kahit ung pinaka kinakaasaran nia.. kasama na dun ung girL.. sa kabilang dako dahil holiday naman.. nagtext na rin ang girl.. sa isip-isip ni loko "ay may kabaitan naman ito kahit papaano"

ayan lumipas ang mga buwan na wala silang pakealam sa isa't isa.. madalas makita ni loko sa internet ang girL ngunit hindi sila nagpapansinan.. madalas nauuna si Loko pero hindi siya pinapansin ni girL"snabera ba daw?!" tse! ang nasabi ni loko "kung ayaw mo saakin mas ayaw ko rin sayo! ngunit isang araw..

1. napilitang tumawag si loko kay girL dahil sa mga pagkakataong hindi inaasahan.. "pare palakasan nalang ng loob ito!" kaya ayan.. ring ring! "hello?" at c girL na nga iyon.. sa umpisa.. nagkakailangan pa talagang magtatanong lang si loko ng mga kaunting bagay na kailangan niyang malaman.. malamig ang pag-uusap.. ngunit maya- maya'y na feel ni loko na interbyuhin muna c girL dahil feel niyang makipag- usap noon.. hanggang sa nagkapalagayan naman ng loob lalo na nung may isang topic na naging interesting kay girL.. sakanya lang ha.. pero dahIL nahulog sa bitag ang loko.. aba tinulungan naman.. take note: lumabas ang taga konsensya para sabihin sa kaniya na "o tigil na ha!baka mapasubo ka nanaman!gagamitin ka lang niyan!loko ka talaga!" pero sabi ni loko sa sarili "hindi yan noh!natuto na kaya ako!tutulungan ko lang tong girL na toh!mukhang hopeless eh..sabi ng konsensya "bahala ka nga!"
2. ayan mistulang naging spy si loko dahil sa mga pinag-uuutos ni girL sakanya.. kaya lang feeling kasi ni loko mabait tong si girL kaya naman sinusuportahan nalang nia at nagmimistulan pa siyang reporter nito araw- araw.. pero di naman nagrereklamo si loko.. bakit kaya?tsk tsk

ito na ang mga senyas: nagdedeny na si loko sakanyang mga nararamdaman
1.sabi ng isang kaibigan habang kinukuwento ni loko ang mga usap nila ni girL "huh?baka mamaya mahulog ka na naman diyan ha!" sabi ni loko "hindi noh!yuck!" pero from the back of his mind.. "nako..ano ba tong nararamdaman ko?pero hate to admit it.. pride ko toh pare!"
2. isang holiday.. kailangan munang magbakasyon.. bago yun ay halos araw- araw na nag- uusap sila at nagtetext.. cno ba naman di madedebelop dun..kaya nung bakasyong maikli.. namiss ni loko ang girL.. ilang araw lang naman itong hindi nagtetext.. at tumatawag.. namiss niya sobra.. bakit kaya?tanong niya sa sarili.. parang di kumpleto ang araw pag di cia nakausap.. grabe na to!nakakaloka!tapos isang gabi.. biglang nagtext!aba ubod ng saya ang loko!saloob- loob nga lang niya.. at sabi nia"hindi!di ko siya gusto!ano ako tanga?nabigo na ako ilang beses tapos uulitin ko pa ulit?baliw!hindi noh!hindi puede~!" ayan.. ayaw yan ang sinasabing ayaw tanggapin ng utak ngunit iyon ang sinisigaw ng .. lam mo na.. korny kasi eh
3. bakit ganon? tanong ni loko sa sarili.. "bakit kahit may ginagawa ako.. kahit gano pa kaimportante yon.. pag tumawag ang girL.. iiwanan niya lahat ng kanyang trabaho?kahit nga maubos ang load ko lalabas pa ako kahit sobrang gabi na o magmamakaawa sa aking ina upang makitext lng?" ayan na ang naglalaro sa kanyang isipan.. aba? bakit nga ba?o ano?kinain mo rin mga sinabi mo no?DI DAW MAGKAKAGUSTO!EH NAHULOG KA NA NGA SA BITAG!
4. nagiimbento ng mga pangyayari na wala namang katotohanan ang iba mapaligaya lang ang girL

ang mga kapighatian:KATOTOHANAN o REALITY 'ika nga
1. dahil sa nagpatuloy parin ang mga walang kuwentang pag-uusap unti- unti ng nahulog ang loko sa girL ngunit di niya naisip na ginagamit lang siya nito nung isang araw na naging busy na ito at wala nang makuwento ang loko kaya wala ng pakealam sa kanya dun niya naisip na hinihintay na pala niya ang bawat sandali sakanyang cellphone para magtext ito.. nyaak.. pano na yan?
2. unti- unti ng nagiisip ng mga weirdong bagay so loko para matigil na ang komunikasyon sakanila ng girL.. kung anu- anong plano.. pero palpak!kasi kinakausap pa siya nito!hay nako the flesh is willing eh kaya di niya naman natiis at kinausap niya ito..
3. unti- unti na niyang naisip at inamin na wala na siyang magagawa dahil nahulog na nga siya sa pain.. nalaglag na ang puso niya!nako tsk tsk lagot ka na ngayon!ayaw man niya pero nangyari na.. unti- unti siyang kinakain.. ang dami na niyang na sacrifice para lang sa girL na ito na hindi na man naaapreciate ng girL na yun.. haay.. kawawang bata ano pa ba?eh hopeless na..
4. puro deny cia pag gising .. araw-araw sinasabi.. ay ayoko na sakanya.. o kaya "ok na ko!nakalimutan ko na siya!" pero mamaya.. hindi pa pala!

mga ToRTUrE:
1. pagkagising siya ang lumabas sa isip
2.talagang nagseselos na siya
3.namimiss na nia ang boses nito
4.naisip niya lahat ng mga inaksaya niyang mga oras para kausapin ang girL at ngaung hindi na siya nito kinakausap parang sumasabog ang puso niya
5.lagi nalang malungkot
6.nagkukunwaring masaya
7.laging guilty sa mga pangyayari
8.hirap- na hirap na sa paglimot sa taong hindi naman makalimutan at bawat oras ay naaalala.. hirap non pare!
9.walang nakakaintindi dahil tinatago niya ang kanyang nararamdaman at laging "ok lang" daw siya
10.hirap dahil lam mong wala siyang pakealam at saya niya ngunit ikaw ay sobrang pighati na parang araw- araw ay nadudurog ang puso
11.nagsesenti- senti pag nakakarinig ng mga hurtful na kanta... aaww!
12.umiiyak sa isang madilim na sulok dahil di matanggap na iniiyakan niya ang walang kuwentang nilalang

pero kung tutuusin kasalanan din niya.. di siya nakinig sa mga babala.. at karma lang yan dude!

mga naging solusyon..
1.burahin ang pangalan at contact no. sa cellphone(actually ilang beses na niyangb binura ito at pinalit-palitan ang pangalan ngunit hindi rin natiis binabalik naman)pero this time wala ng balikan!
2.burahin sa ym
3. di na kausapin kahit saan
4.wag na sumama sa lakad kung saan naroon siya

well di pa daw tapos ang kuwento.. tingnan natin kung gagana ang mga solusyon na yan at kung anong mangyayari sa kanya sa bandang huli

O ANO?ALAM NIYO NA!WAG NA KASING MAKULIT!WAG NA MAGPALOKO SA MGA FEELINGS NAYAN!MAGARAL NALANG MABUTI!KALOKOHAN KASI YANG MGA YAN!AKSAYA LANG SA ORAS!parang ganito hahahaa

~*pagninilay- nilay:si loko at si girL*~

ang araw na ito?!whew nakakaasar kasi di ako nagising ng maaga para naman makapag internet ako ng libre.. haay naku kagabi nanaman sinumpong na naman ako ng pagka- drama queen ko minsan talaga gan0n.. well may mga naisip lang naman ako..
~~ una, pagtapos ko basahin ang vince life.. naisip ko na mahirap talaga ang long distance love relationship.. haha kasi di un nagwork kanila andrea at vince.. pero ayon nga sa kasabihan.. kung talagang para sayo.. babalik rin yun at magkakatuluyan kayo.. yun ay kung para nga sayo (ano ba yan aga- aga ang corny ng naiisip ko) iba talaga nagagawa ng libro.. lumalawak imahinasyon ko kung anu- ano tuloy nasasabi ko bwahahaha
~~ pangalawa, sa iba pang summit books na nabasa ko, bakit mga babae ngayon nagpapahawak na sa mga bf nila?mga lalake pala ngayon agresiive na.. sabagay eh ung nabasa ko mga 26 plus na cla.. pero kahit na!dapat medyo ay hindi pala dapat kasal na.. sorry ha makaluma pa rin ang pag-iisip ko pero yun talaga ang prinsipyo ko sa buhay.. kanya kanya lang yan noh!

bakit ganon pag may nangyaring masaya sayo maya-maya aatakihin ka nanaman ng kalungkutan?naiisip ko na naman ang malapit kong pag- alis.. whew.. 18 days to go nalang! haha sigurado di ako makakatulog agad dun hehe ito nalang kuwento sa inyo:
naisip na naman ung 'duh?! nagdadrama na naman c loko.. kasi nananahimik na nga lumabas pa yung pangalan niya sa ym.. kaya ginawa ni loko binura niya agad ung name nia.. bwahahaha kasi pagtapos nun naramdaman na naman ni loko ang pagbilis ng tibok.. eeeewss! tapos ayun c loko nagdrama na sa kuwarto.. na torture na naman siya nung 'duh?! na wala namang kaalam- alam sa mundo.. kaasar!gusto nang pumasok ni loko para makalimutan na ang eewss ng buhay niya.. pero yun nga lang pagpumasok na siya mamimiss niya na ang mga bagay- bagay..
kawawang bata.. naiisip pa rin niya ang panggagamit na ginawa sa kanya..dati rati'y closde sila dahil may mga dahilan.. dahil nagagamit pa niya ang loko pero dahil hindi na kapaki- pakinabang.. wala nang pakealam ang "girl na yun" sakanya.. pero di rin kasalanan ni girl na magkagusto sakaya si loko.. kaya itong si loko.. praning na kakaiisip kay girl.. para bang tinotorture siya... "ahhhhhh tama na!" ika niya.. nakakaawa naman talaga.. laging bigo si loko.. gusto man niyang kalimutan si girl.. kahit panaginip nito ay hinu- hunt siya.. ano yan nightmare?!pati dun sinusundan siya ng mga alaala niya.. galit na si loko sakanya.. pero aminin man niya o hindi.. gusto pa rin niya si girL.. hindi pa rin niya makalimutan ang mga nice convesations nila together.. ito ang nabuong feelings niya para kay girl na sa simula pa lamang ay hindi na dapat mangyari dahil alam na niya na ito lang ang kakahantungan non.. pero ano nga bang magagawa niya?mas malakas ang puso dahiL tinatalo nito ang bawat laman ng pagiisip niya.. na kahit i- deny niya man.. alam niya sa sarili niya na masarap ang pakiramdam.. pero lahat yun ay mali!sa simula palang ay mali na dahil hindi naman siya ang tipo ni girl.. c girl ay walang pake alam dahil di naman niya care' ang nangyayari kay loko at wala siyang alam.. talagang hiwalay na ang landas nila.. sa ibang eskwelahan na nag-aaral ang girL at c loko naman ay ganon din.. "things won't work- out" ika nga.. at hindi naman talaga siya gusto ni girl.. ano nga bang magagawa niya?hinihintay lang niya na makalimutan niya si girl na hindi naman madali.. haay si loko ang tanga talga!pero di naman niya pinili yun.. may mga warning signs na nga siya sa umpisa na wag na niyag ipagpatuloy.. pero sige pa rin siya dahil kala niya hindi siya mahuhulog sa "trap" pero wala na siyang magawa nung maramdaman na niya ang mga di inaasahang mga bagay.. haay.. nakakaawa nnnnnamang talaga.. to be continued..

*~whew! a day out again with my hs classmates!*~

crap!i woke up this morning around 7:50! and I have a badminton game with my hs friends at around 8!whoah!the reason I woke up late this morning is because I went to the Miss Teen Philippines pageant yesterday which was held in AFP theater because ate Princess or Ellore, the daughter of my m0m's bestfriend and my childhood friend,qualified in the finals!imagine she is now the 2nd runner up of ms. teen 2005.. well i took pictures (sorry i don't have infrared yet.. just gonna buy maybe next month?) of the top 5 winners and im pretty sure they are some kind of popular now because a lot of media man was there and they were taking pictures and you know.. some sort of interview.. well those girls were not just gorgeous but also they have the brains.. you know they're witty.. well what can i say? CONGRATULATIONS!..
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well that's it i was late and i made them wait for me at jollibee siena.. sorry guys.."bangag pa ko eh..< but still they waited for me... that's why i love you.. hahaha and then we played for one hour.. then we ate at Mc Donalds..(at least its not Jollibee!) sawang sawa nako dun eh! > and we had planned to go to erik's place and watch some DVD's but we just decided to go to sm north to watch another movie.. hahaha its bikini open.. hahaha its not a bold movie!actually its just R-13!my friends and I just had so much fun!its funny.. well i just thought that sometimes ou don't need to exert too much effort to watch.. because in my case in some movies that I have seen already.. some stories were complicated.. well i'm not saying that i don't like it.. of course I do..! because you can be a good analizer and critisizer of those films.. but sometimes you can just watch to speak your heart out!and just be yourself.. i laughed to hard a while ago.. and I noticed that I'm so happy to be with my classmates in High School because as I have said a couple of times .. we're really close and eventhough I do some things that are really crazy.. I will not be ashamed because they know me so much.. and we are so comfortable with each other.. and I love that!I felt so belong again.. Gosh! I really do miss you guys.. hope you're alright.. well that's it.. i'm signing off .. I had a bad day yesterday before the beauty pageant because it rained too hard and I was even forced to buy an umbrella but still my whole pants were so drenched with rain.. and while I'm walking a bus suddenly splashed water in my pants again... so cold and i was freezing outside.. and i was late because the girl in front me is so slow ... grrr!! it took me 20 minutes in the Kodak photoshop to print the project of my brother.. well .. its just fine because my friend won 2nd runner up in the pageant.. and its worth it.. haha bye!I'M SIgning off!

~*lalala*~

19 days to go nalang.. babush na... waah talagang aalis na ako sa comfort zone ko.. why is it difficult forme>>??? so so difficult talaga.. pero masasanay din ako noh!di ba? ok lang naman ako ngayon puro basa ng books.. harhar at tinatamad na ako mag gym.. bakit kaya?? basta tamad na ako eh bahala na eh wala na akong gana eh wala na akong magagawa.. bukas badminton kami ok na ba yun??



yan babasahin ko palang.. wahahaha well tsaka nalang magsulat la nako masabi..bye!

~*oNe LasT crY*~

waaah what a day!masasabi ko lang.. ang sarap ng may mga tunay na kaibigan.. actually ngayon ngayon nalang kami nagbobonding ulit ng orig barkada ko ang saya.. kaya mas lalo tuloy akong mahihirapan umalis.. nangako din ako sa sarili ko ngayon na kakalimutan ko na ang mga bagay- bagay na walang maitutulong saakin.. pero mahirap pa rin.. i'm still struggling to fight over it.. kaya ko to!ika nga.. basta hindi hinahanap yun .. darating nalang yun sa panahong di mo inaasahan.. siyempre nahihirapan na rin ako pero ganon talaga buhay.. magtiis ka nalang..

ganyan talaga buhay.. haay papasok nalang ako para makalimutan na toh..

~~mga araL na naTuTuNan~~

ehem.. well anung oras na?? umaga na! well libre ang internet kaya ok lang.. my brother got sick and as usual i'm taking care of him.. kaya di pa ako tulog wahaha di bale talagang balak ko madaling araw dahil "free internet hours kasi.." well kuwento ko nangyari nung sAt and sun.. kasi monday na ngaun wahahaha well we went to mall and we ate at Cabalen.. no offense but i didn't enjoy the food.. busog na kaya ako?! ewan.. baka.. tapos nuod kami ng starwars 3 return of the sith.. weLL nakakaasar.. kasi naging Darth Vader na siya pero actually dami kong nalamang lessons sa story nun..
**mga napagisip-isip ni gabbang**
1. kaya naturn si annakin sa dark side ay dahil sa LOVE.. yes! he was blinded by love.. love blinds you.. kaya pati mission niya ay nakalimutan niya at nagawa niyang pumatay dahil na inlababo siya.. tsk.. tsk.. kaya kung may ambisyon at misyon ka sa buhay.. think again.. mind over the heart muna.. before its too late na hindi mo na matuwid ang pagkakamali mo.
2. ngayon ko lang nalaman na umuubo pala ang mga robot.. nagkakasakit din pala sila
kung sa assesment.. naliwanagan na rin ako nung napanuod ko yan wahaha

feeling ko talaga may purpose rin at message talaga saakin kung bakit ko napanuod yan.. nagpapasalamat ako dahil mas naliwanagan ako.. pero secret na yun!wahaha

~~ isa pang sign! well sa church naman ang setting swak din ang message kanina
well talagang nararamdaman ko na ang sabi saakin as a personal message"hindi ko dapat biguin c Father Jesus.. kailangan kong magawa ang misyon ko sa buay at kailangang illiminate ko ang mga bagay na makakagulo lang sa pagtupad ng misyon na un.. naks!kailangan i-sacrifice ko ang mga ilang bagay.. at baka bumagsak lang ako at di ko pa maabot ang dream Nia para saakin pag NainLababo ako diba?! kaya pigilan na dapat ang mga bagay na yoon.. kaya ngayon kailangan ko na ng disiplina.. NO BOYLETS ALLOWED! bwahahahaha at isa pa gusto ko sana boyfriend ko doctor din kaya matagal pa dapat pag proper medicine nah.. pero kahit na mmadali akong madistract eh.. kaya dapat wala pa.."
mga natutunan ko:
1. in the little things we do , we can serve God
2. Keep the Main thing the Main thing, and te main thing is God..
3. attempt greathing for God because we serve a great God!
4. don't put to shame the name of the Lord.. kaya dapat iwasan temptations..
5. there's nothing impossible with God
6. We must look to eternal things which are unseen..

to stay young:
1. Learn to laugh each and everyday of your life
2. continue dreaming
3. always find opportunity in changing
4. have no regrets

hahaha ngayon ito naman ang mga naiisip ko dahil kaka tapos ko lang basahin toh


~*bakit di mo na dapat siya isipin at kontakin?*~
1. bakit mo siya kakausapin at iisipin eh wala naman siyang pake-alam sayo?!
2. distraction lang siya sa buhay mo kaya di ka makapagconcentrate
3. di mo mare-reach goal mo pag inatupag mo pa siya
4. mababawasan ang dignidad mo sa sarili mo dahil nagdedepend ka nalang sakanya
5. wala ka ng pag-asa dahil hindi ikaw gusto niya wahaha
6. marami pa diyan!di siya para sayo dahil ang Diyos naman magbibigay non sau sa tamang panahon.. wag mo kasi hanapin darating nalang yon
7. natututo kang magsinungaling dahil sakanya.. nagkakasala ka tuloy lalo
8. nagiging malungkutin ka lang dahil sa kanya

so? why try??? stop dramas girl!there's more to life!

~~~~~*bakit parang alanganin na makalipat "daw" sa Diliman*~~~~~~~~
1. mahirap daw mag maintain ng grade na 1.75 dahil terror ang mga professors.. ibabagsak ka daw nila
2. baka daw ma- in love na ako sa place
3. baka magka boyfriend ka at di mo na siya kaya iwanan

haay kung anu- ano na pinagsusulat ko BANGAG NA KASI EH! CGE TOM NALANG ULI!

~*just arrived!*~

well i just got home.. but actually the party isn't over yet.. i'm going to the mall right now wuth my family to watch starwars.. well im some kind of tired but i'm happy because i spent a day out with my original friends encar and hannh.. poor rachel.. she wasn't abale to join us due to some circumstances.. harahar well anyway.. a day of girl talk with my original friends.. the magic between us>?? well we are friends.. the best of since.. grade school up to now.. almost 6 years.. we've done through a lot of obstacles.. we even fought and i even thought that our friendship wouldn't last this long.. i think we just have to hold on each other.. and experiences made us better.. its funny.. its like eventhough we have'nt met each other for a couple of months.. pero pag nagkita kami.. parang kahapon lang magkakasama kami.. ang saya! .. we are so comfortable with each other.. that we can talk anything and everything under the sun.. i really love you guys!you take care of yourselves,, right now we see each other often because.. i'm going na eh i'm gonna miss them a lot!just keep in touch my dearest friends.. and our friendship will survive.. i think that's one of the secrets...well gotta go!see yah!

~~* night time*~~

waah!my head aches because of my addiction to this computer.. well anyway i answered this stuff.. about WHAT MAKES ME BEAUTIFUL well here's the result..

Joanna, you're a Timeless Beauty

Simplicity and elegance reign supreme in your closet. While others clamor to get the hottest, new designs, you prefer to take your time and find the additions that accent your already fabulous wardrobe. For a classic like you, style doesn't change that much, and you've always got it.

Thoughtful and kind, you try not to sweat the small stuff like a bad hair day or missing a great sale. After all, you've got priorities like family and friends, and everything else takes a back seat. Sound cool? You are!

well that's it.. im chatting with my bestfriends rigt now in ym.. weLL im early for tomorrow for a chatting session with my original circle of friends.. mwaah! see yah!
well add nio nga pala ito sa friendster.. haha kami yan eh,, haha nasama pa ako! thanks guys!

~~ang aking paaraLan~~campus tour~~

ngayon dito n ako mag-aaraL..

haay!hirap mga pinagdaanan ko dito.. lakad mga forms... hanggang sa maka test ako.. hanggang sa pumasa.. hanggang sa magpa medical.. hanggang sa mag-enrol.. hanggang mag orientation ng pagka tagal-tagal.. pero masarap naman ang hangin hahaha at nakita ko pa dun kamukha ng first puppy love kong si kimpepot.. wahahaha cute nia.. haay ito na! ito ang mapa........


ito ang main.. pag pasok makikita mo to!
ito ung malaking field.. dun
ito ung may kalabaw.. waahaha
yan library namin
humanities bldg..daw
jan daw training rotc..malaki field
physical sci buildg..
ito daw parang grand stand
ito ang math building
engineering bldg..
ito.. nakalimutan ko e basta.. bldg!
-- teka dami na ata yan may idea na kayo kung san ako pupunta at titira ng panandalian... wahaahahaa
yan nga pala ang mall na pinaka malapit... ang liit n0h!ganon talaga buhay..
ito institute of fudtec
yan may statue daw maria makiling..
human economics building daw..
student union building
pero siyempre ito pa rin ang nauna kong school...
hail beloved siena... wahahaha
tama na! next time uli! pagod nako!

50/50~~mga kalungkutang nadarama~~50/50

haay nako buhay.. marami na akong na mimiss ngayon pa lang ... tingnan natin ang mga pangyayari... yan naaalala ko na itong mga taong toh... ayan! namimiss ko na sila... mga kaklase ko sa four N batch 2004-2005... yan ay kinunan nung retreat namin sa Baguio.. grabe bago ata ako makasama diyan!nagpakahirap pa ako.. kasi may sinalihan akong play sa church.. grabe na- give up ko pa yon.. sorry Lord.. prto para rin naman kay Lord yun kasi reflection yun at spiritualwell kaya nga!yun tawanan at iyakan.. may part dun ... ang bait talaga ni Father.. actually parang whole day pinakinggan niya lang kami.. ganon naman kasi dapat eh.. hindi dapat puro serm0n.. tapos.. iyak pa kami ng iyak... wahahaha nung pinarealize saamin kung ilang days nalang kaming magkakasama.. wahaha.. miss na miss ko na mga kaklase ko.. pano ba naman magkakasama kami ng ilang taon na.. halos di na nga kami nahihiya sa isa't- isa.. sobrang close na namin kaya kahit mga pag labas ng hangin at pag jeerbox ay malaman ng mga classmates mo ay susuportahan ka pa nila san ka pa?!eh di dito sa mga totoong kapamilya at kapuso pa!huhuhu iyak talaga ako sobra nung graduation namin huhuhu ... ayan.. miss ko lang yung mga times na cramming sa school mga home work.. mga nanginginig... mga kopyahan.. mga tawanan.. kainan kahit may klase.. mga pasaway.. pahgiging reunited namin kahit anong mangyari pag may umaaway.. kahit ano pang nangyari all 4 one, one foar all.. naalala ko pa non pinagtanggol ako ng buong classmates ko.. grabe na touch ako.. inaway nila ung umaaway saakin! i never felt so belong with this class kaya the best talaga kayo at ngayon kailangan ko nang harapin ang college life ko.. ano kayang mangyayari? sa UPLB kasi ako mag-aaral.. tapos qc ako nakatira.. layo noh?! bakit nga ba? una sa lahat dapat UST ako para deretso na medicine kaya lang RECOMMENDATION LANG AKO>> kaya naisip nila mag UNIVERSITY OF ASIA AND PACIFIC kaya pumasa naman ako sa wakas.. sabi ko haay salamat may pinasahan din.. di ko na hinahantay ung UP.. kaya lang sabi ng tito ko mag Doktor pa rin ako eh waLa namang medicine sa UAP wahaha kaya mag USt nalang daw kunin recommendation.. kaso biglang dumating yung UP.. Nyaak!pumasa pala ako pero sa LB.. wahahaha ang layo siyempre kung papipiliin mas sikat ang UP sa UST kaya dun nalang daw ako papas0k.. shift nalang daw.. eh may maintain na grade dapat ay 2 or 1.75.. or better.. waah eh UP un!para makalipata ako sa DILIMAN para mas malapit.. haay kaya dapat mag- aral mabuti kundi magtatagal ako diyan ng 4 years..tapos lipat na naman ara mag-aral ulit ng medicine proper... hooh! matagal na pag-aaral yan ha! pero ayos lang professional ka naman!nako.. nararamdaman ko na mamimiss ko ang aking pinaka mamahal na tahanan na simula bata ay dun ako nakatira.. ang kuwarto.. mesa.. tv.. sala.. banyo.. lahat!pero sabi nga nila.. "pag nagtagal ayaw mo na umalis.. you'' fall in love with the place.." ganon.. eh totoo naman maganda naman talaga.. pumunta na ako.. parang nasa sobrang laking parke ka!fresh air at conducive.. pero nag-aalangan pa rin kaya nga 50/50 .. kalahati.. gusto ko na pumasok.. kalahati ayoko pa dahil maho-home sic ako.. pero that's life.. feel ko talagang nilagay ako ni Lord diyan.. kaya hindi ako dapat magreklamo.. bahala na Siya saakin.. basta mag-aaral ako mabuti.. yun.. mamimiss ko rin mga kapatid ko.. pamilya ko..mama ko.. lola.. lahat sila friends ko.. pero pano ko ba maggo-grow kung laging nakadepend ka?dapat matuto ako mag-isa.. this is a new learning to me..

mga pangyayari kahapon at ngayon...gul0 ba?

kahap0n lamang ay masaya...batet?kasi pumunta ako sa laguna... calamba... una muna dahil sa.. sasamahan ko ang aking mahaL na kapatid.. na?.. manguha ng mga retrato.. bakit?para sa kanyang proyekto sa mapua tungkol sa ating bayani na si Jose RizaL... haay napaka init!kasama ko rin ang aking papa at aking kapatid...na isa pa.. at nung mga ala-sais ay nagswim naman kami sa swiss res0rt!actually 1 hour nga lang eh pano kasi.. ayoko umitim wahahahha tapos ayon napagod ako kumain pako ng gabi ng sizzling beef steak... ang tigas nga eh... wahahaha tapos un pag-uwi ang MAder ay wala pa... sandali ah balik ako memories of bali pa eh...stained glass na!... brb!

a very busy day....

ano ba ginawa ko buong araw??waah nakakaloka!wala pa akong tulog!4 na oras lang tapos umalis na naman ako para mag shopping!saya nga eh ngayon dumami lalo damit ko ... 14 shirts na nabili ko haha sa halagang 2500... sobra kasi sale.. meron nakong mga hankies.. 2 shoes.. wahahaha buti nalang sa up ako mag-aaral kaya binigyan ako opportunity padamihin ng ganon ka dami yung mga damit ko wahahaha.. actually medyo excited na rin ako pumasok.. pero kalahati lang ha.. kasi yung other half nalulungkot syempre... kailangan ko pa maging mas independent ngayon at kayanin ang kalungkutan na madadama ko sa lugar na yun.. kailangan ko yatang mag adjust noh! well anyway sinagutan ko toh... from my friend abby... waah abby pareho tayo tingin sa isa't - isa.. ung risk taker chuva wahahahaha... nuod nako ha cge bye!

What You Really Think Of Your Friends
Marilou is your soulmate.
You truly love Arienette.
You consider Agatha your true friend.
You know that Jamaica is always thinking of you.
You'll remember Jennifer for the rest of your life.
You secretly think Raymond is creative, charming, and a bit too dramatic at times.
You secretly think that Abby is colorful, impulsive, and a total risk taker.
You secretly think that Encar is loyal and trustworthy to you. And that Encar changes lovers faster than underwear.
You secretly think Dana is shy and nonconfrontational. And that Dana has a hidden internet romance.

wahahahaha

how do you know if he or she's the one?

A more important question is - how do you catch the RIGHT one?:: Simple: You take only the bus that's headed the: RIGHT DIRECTION.:: First we must allow our Heavenly Father to do the: picking. And second, the decision for a mate must: be made on a spiritual and intellectual basis: before it's made on an emotional one.:: What about love?, you ask. I'll tell you why. "The: heart is deceitful above all things and beyond: cure. Who can understand it? (Jer 17:9). The heart: is willful and is driven by its own agenda. It: does not consider things rationally and: intelligently - it just loves to love!:: Therefore you have to point it in the right: directions: "Above all else, guard your heart, for: it is the wellspring of life" (Proverbs 4:23).:: Whenever you meet a man, you need to get clearance: from God, check out his attributes, and then allow: your heart to engage.:: Dating exists not for mating; it exists for: collecting data. I believe that the biblical design: would be friendship, courtship and then marriage.:: Friendship is two people walking together in: agreement and accountability, learning and growing: together.:: Courtship follows the mutual agreement to commit to: one another exclusively - it is the decisive turning: toward the agreed-upon goal of the marriage altar.:: It is a period of laying a foundation and preparing: your life together after marriage. But dating? Well,: if you do date, use the time wisely to gather facts.:: So when you do gather facts, let us compare the: process to clothes shopping.:: 1. Check out the fabric. Is the person mate: material? Does this man have an intimate: relationship with the Father through Jesus: Christ? Does he care what God thinks about: his behavior? Is he accountable to God as: well as another co-laborer in the faith?:: Accountability is an important factor. It is: imperative to maintaining a committed relationship.: Is your potential spouse a member of the same family: - the family of God?:: Scripture is clear on this: "Do not be yoked: together with unbelievers. For what do righteousness and wickedness havein common? Or what fellowship can light have with darkness?" (2 Cor 6:14).:: You need to have common interest and values and: agree on the essentials of living day to day. You: have a similar spiritual walk. You eat the same diet.: You enjoy a lot of similar things. You have like: interests, like goals in life, like opinions on: basic life issues. You have had like experiences in your background.Though there is some truth to the idiom that opposites attract, like-mindedfolks: fare better together.:: Furthermore, does he want to get married? If you: want to be married and your dreamboat isn't: interested, don't waste your time.:: Remember, women fall in love and get married. Men: decide to get married and then look for a wife.: Note the difference in order. So if a guy says he's not looking foranything serious, take his words seriously. If he's not going yourdirection, get off the bus & wait for the right one.:: 2. Does this man want you? Is he pursuing you?: The man who is right for you will pursue you: and God's hand in the relationship will be: clear. No guessing, no fleeces, no dead ends.: Scripture says: "He who finds a wife finds: what is good and receives favor from the Lord": (Prov 18:22).:: Note - who finds whom? THE MAN FINDS THE WIFE. From the beginning of time,God has transported men & women across the world in order to put themtogether.: At the RIGHT TIME, He will bring that man on the: scene and he will find you.:: In God's perfect design, the man is the one who: recognizes his mate. Adam has no problem recognizing that Eve was hismissing rib. You do not need to strategically place yourself anywhere. Youdon't have to help a guy out because he's shy. Men will do whatever theyhave to do to get what they truly want.:: The man in your life should recognize you as the: pearl of great price in his life and be willing to: do whatever he must in order to gain your hand. If: he is passive about gaining your affections, take: it as a sign that he is not interested. Many a: woman's mother has suggested that it is a good idea to marry a man wholoves you more than you love him.: As cold as that sounds, it actually might be: scriptural if you stop to think about it::: "We love him because he first loved us" (1 Jn 4:19).:: Until then, take the ultimate chill pill. You don't need a bunch of men inyour life to make you feel all right about yourself. You need only one man-your man, the one God has selected to select you.: And trust me, the right man at the wrong time can: be just as awful as the wrong man at any time. So: trust God's timing in this. He is the ultimate: matchmaker.:: Relax, sit pretty and allow your self to be found.: Again - WAIT until the man voices his intentions.: He should take the lead in establishing the: relationship.:: You may have inkling that he is the one, but God: will use the man to set the tone of the: relationship. Allow him the opportunity to woo you: - this is your first act of submission. Jesus set: the standard for all men to follow. They should: love us first. And they should lead the: relationship.:: 3. The man in your life should not desire to: move into your house, only into your heart.: A man who prepares for your future has made: his intentions clear. A man who is husband: material has the means to take care of a: wife. He is a responsible human being who: understands he needs to have something to: offer. In short, a man should have the means: to be a suitable lover for you.:: 4. Check out his buddies. Everyone knows birds: of the same feather flock together, yet most: women fail to see the connection between a: man and his friends.:: A man's pals tell you a lot about the person that: you haven't seen yet. They reveal things about: the guy's character that might be hidden when he: is on good behavior. Everyone knows how to put his: best foot forward. Don't stay focused on the foot,: check out the rest of the body!:: 5. Check out his relationship with his mother.: How does he treat her? This is your preview: of how he will treat you.:: There are lots of men who, because of a negative: relationship with their mothers, really don't like: women, yet say they do. Unresolved issues between: mother and son continue between husband and wife.:: 6. Remember that a man's family reveals the cloth: from which he's cut. Take note and decide: whether you want your future with the man in: your life to look like his present family: situation.:: 7. Check out the patterns of his life. Do you see: repeated cycles of drama in his personal: kingdom? broken relationships? problems in: making commitments? including the job market?: mood swings? Is a problem always someone else's fault? Does he embraceresponsibility or shirk it? Does he keep his promises? Is he a man of: good reputation? Remember all garments look: wonderful hanging in the store, but with wear,: some begin to unravel. Give yourself time and: space to check out the man in your life. Time: will always reveal whether or not he is made: of the right stuff.:: 8. Does this man have a vision for his life? Is: he running with that vision? Remember, God: decided Adam needed help once Adam got busy: DOING his assignment. As we saw Adam, a man: doesn't need help until he is busy doing what: he was created and called to do. Is your guy: guided by sense of destiny and purpose, or: does he just allow life to happen around him?:: A man who is not certain of his mission can be a: most miserable person - and you'll be miserable: too if you know where YOU want to go in life. A: man who has vision is not intimidated by a woman: whose mission statement is clear. He will be your: best ally, cheerleader and assistant because he: wants you both to make it! A man who cannot be: supportive of your achievements because he is: floundering in a sea of uncertainty over his own: life is not a healthy partner to have and to hold: forever. Creating dependencies or feelings of: obligation is not the way to get the best out of: your man. Somewhere along the way, he will resent: you and flee from the smothering burden of: obligation he associates you with. You want a man: who is firmly anchored in his identity in Christ.:: Remember, we are looking for a man who will be: priest and leader of his home. His first instinct: should be to want to cover you, redeem you, and: provide for you. Your job is to decide if this is: the man God has ordained for you to complement.:: 9. Complementarity. Do your talents and gifts: complement his? Do his gifts complement yours?: What about your temperaments? Do you see the: two of you as an effective team capable of: bringing blessing to the lives of those around: you? Do your futures mesh? Can you coordinate: your gifts in an attractive and effective way?:: This is why knowing your purpose is so important.: Make sure your hearts beat for mutual causes. When: I go shopping always consider the fabric, the fit: and what I already have in my closet. Will my next: purchase be a complementary addition to what I: already have? If I find that I am going to have to: buy shoes and matching accessories to go with a new outfit, I leave itright on the rack. It is too: expensive a proposition.:: If the man you meet makes you feel that you need to completely reinventyourself, something is wrong.: This is where I ask you to consider the relationship in terms of cost. Isthis relationship expensive spiritually, emotional or physically? Does yourlonging for a mate make you willing to forfeit who you are in the process?Or does he see you as the gift that you are?:: The man in your life should consider you a rare find, a priceless jewel-because of you he is getting ready to get blessed big-time! Any relationshipthat causes you to feel unworthy, unlovely, unacceptable, undesirable orthat you have to work for love, is too expensive!:: God has called the man to cover, protect and provide not only materiallyfor a woman, but emotionally and spiritually as well. You should be richerin mind, body and spirit for your union with the man of your dreams. The manin your life should make rich deposits into your heart and spirit, notwithdrawals.:: 10. Does he have a healthy love & acceptance of: himself? Make sure the man in your life has taken time to heal frompast relationships and has made peace with himself. How he cares for himselfis: how he will care for you.:: A man's relationship with God is crucial here. His love for himself willonly be as strong as his love for God.: This is not something that you can impart. You cannot be his savior orteacher. That is out of spiritual order.: In his rightful place as your personal priest, he: should be leading you to a richer relationship with Christ. If he iscausing you to compromise your faith and destabilize your walk, if he isleading you into sexual sin or causing you to be distracted from yourcommitment to Christ, the relationship is too expensive. Offending the Loverof your soul, who promises you eternal love, is too high a fare to pay for aride that has a limited run.:: If you and your man can't soar in the Spirit, when the force of your lovefor another is tested by the pull or gravity of the world, your union willnot be able to survive.:: So you decide. How much is your life worth? How much is your love worth?You will be able to accept only what you believe you deserve. God himselfcalculated the worth of your love and decided it was worth His life. He nowpledges you His love for eternity. Yes, Jesus sets the example for allothers to follow when He paid a ransom for His bride. Should you expect lessfrom a mortal man?:: Throughout the Biblical age, men were willing to pay the cost for the handthat they desired. The truth of the matter is, everyone knows that anythingworth having, costs. And no one gets a ride in this life for free.:: Your prayer:::: Dear Heavenly Father,:: I confess that I have not always been as careful as I should've been withmy heart. From time to time, my desire for love has caused me to leave myheart in the wrong hands. I now commit my heart into Your hands forsafekeeping.:: Please help me to stop being so impulsive with what you deem so precious.As I learn to celebrate Your love for me, let me learn from Your examplewhat a bridegroom should really be like. Help me to never settle for lessthan what you desire for me.:: As I embrace You as the Lover of my soul, keep my: affections in the haven of Your own heart. As I rest in Your love, make memore discriminating of those who approach me. I ask that You take over thisarea of my life. Keep me from those You know would hurt my heart.:: I invite You to set a hedge around me and keep me from all who would drawme into unfruitful relationships until the day you present me to the matethat You have selected for me.:: Grant me the discernment to recognize him as he: recognizes me. Cleanse me from the temptation to: typecast the men I meet according to what I see.: Help me to trust in Your knowledge and lean not: on my own understanding. I know that You know: what is best for me; therefore I yield to Your: choice. In Jesus Name. Amen.

80 Things Every Grown Woman Should Know & Think About

1. If a man wants you, nothing can keep him away. > If he doesn't want you, nothing can make him stay. > 2. Stop making excuses for a man's behavior. > 3. If you have ANY doubt in your mind about a > man's character, leave him alone. > 4. Allow your intuition (or spirit) to save you > from heartache. > 5. Stop trying to change yourself for a > relationship that's not meant to be. > 6. Don't force an attraction. > 7. Slower is better. > 8. Never live your life for a man before you find > what makes you truly happy. > 9. If a relationship ends because the man was not > treating you as you deserve then heck no you > can't "be friends." A friend wouldn't mistreat a > friend. > 10. Have faith in God regarding your relationship, > but don't let faith make you stupid. God does > things decent and in order. > 11. Don't settle. > 12. If you feel like he is stringing you along, > then he probably is. > 13. If he keeps changing his mind about the > relationship-take that as a BIG sign that he is > unstable. Do you really want to be with a > man like that? > 14. Don't stay because you think "it will get > better." You'll be mad at yourself a year later > for staying when things are not better. > 15. Honorable men take care of their business and > aren't involved in a whole lot of mess. > 16. The only person you can control in a > relationship is you. > 17. There's only one 'reason' a man dumps you; he > doesn't want you. > 18. Avoid men who've got a bunch of children by a > bunch of different women. He didn't marry them > when he got them pregnant, why would he treat you > any differently? > 19. You really do have to kiss a few frogs before > finding the prince. > 20. Always put yourself and your happiness first. > 21. Always have your own set of friends separate > from his. > 22. Maintain boundaries in how a guy treats you. > If something bothers you, speak up. > 23. Like from the show Sex and the City, if he > doesn't call, he just isn't that interested. > 24. Be honest and up-front. > 25. Know when to cut the cord, don't be strung > along. > 26. Don't fall for the "I'm confused role". Remove > yourself from the situation to let him figure > things out (but don't wait for him, move on). > 27. If you want to have a clue as to how he will > treat you, watch how he treats the WOMEN in his > family (not just mom). > 28. There's more than physical abuse, there's > emotional and mental abuse. If he causes any of > them...flee. > 29. You cannot change a man's behaviors. Change > comes from within. > 30. Don't let him place rules on you that he is > not willing to follow himself -- double-standard. > 31. Don't EVER make him feel he is more important > than you are...even if he has more education or > in a better job. > 32. Do not make him into a quasi-god. He is a man, > nothing more nothing less. > 33. Demand respect and if he can't give it, he > can't have you! > 34. Don't compete with other woman, but be aware > that men are attracted to what they see. > 35. If you think he is cheating, he probably is. > Confront him right away and if you feel he's > lying, let him go. > 36. Actions speak louder than words. > 37. Never let a man define who you are. > 38. Never rely on a man for compliments, look to > yourself for that. > 39. Never borrow someone else's man. > 40. If he cheated with you, he'll cheat on you. > 41. Just because he says he loves you, doesn't > mean that he won't hurt you and it doesn't mean > that you are meant to be with him. > 42. To use painful hard-won wisdom-'get it right' > the next time. > 43. Know that you deserve to be the number one > person in the life of the #1 person in your life. > 44. Love is a verb. > 45. Learn to give up your lifelong task of trying> > to make someone unavailable-available, someone > ungiving-giving, and someone unloving-loving. > 46. A man will only treat you the way you ALLOW > him to treat you. > 47. All men are NOT dogs. > 48. You should not be the one doing all the > bending...compromise is a two way street. > 49. If you don't love self...you can't love anyone > else. > 50. You cannot mend someone else's broken heart. > 51. You need time to heal between relationships... > there is nothing cute about baggage...deal with > your issues before pursuing a new relationship. > 52. You should never look for someone to COMPLETE > you...a relationship consists of two WHOLE > individuals...look for someone complimentary... > not supplementary. > 53. Dating is fun...even if he doesn't turn out to > be Mr. Right. > 54. NEVER give more in a relationship than you are > getting out of it. > 55. Never become your man's "therapist". > 56. When actions and words conflict, believe the > actions. Respond to the actions. > 57. A real healthy relationship requires two > people. One person can mend it* but it takes two > to make it work. > 58. Don't fall for the "I'm not the loving > type"...when a man loves you there is nothing in > this world (within reason) that he wouldn't > do for you. > 59. Make him miss you sometimes...when a man > always know where you are, and you're always > readily available to him he takes it for granted. > 60. Give him his space...let him go out with his > boys, don't pressure him to spend time with you, > You can't force a man to hang out with you. > 61. If you wouldn't allow your daughter to be with > him you shouldn't. > 62. Never let a man know everything. He will use > it against you later. > 63. Never move into his mother's house. > 64. Provide financially for yourself and don't > depend on anyone. > 65. Never co-sign for a man. > 66. Never believe you have the perfect guy and he > is so innocent. > 67. Never spoil your man; let him spoil you. > 68. Never let a man mess up your credit. > 69. When it's time to let go; let go. > 70. Good men should be treated like good men. > 71. Don't play games. > 72. You can't make a whore into a housewife - or > husband. > 73. Don't fully commit to a man who doesn't give > you everything that you need. Keep him in your > radar but get to know others. > 74. Compatibility in terms of educational > attainment, values, beliefs, personal and career > goals, and socioeconomic status, are important. > 75. Never date a guy who wears colored contacts. > 76. Never believe a man who says "that's just my > baby's momma", you can be sure, there'll be drama. > 77. Never believe a man that tells you he wants > to be with you, while he's with someone else, - > if he wanted to be with you, he would make it > happen more sooner than later. > 78. Don't be a man's door mat , make him open the > door for you, because a real man would do this on > his own. > 79. Dealings with a married man, most likely wont > work out in your favor. > 80. There is someone out there worthy to be in > your life, let out the trash so he can come in. > -------------

thoughts... reminiscing my past faults..

sometimes i'm so so weird.. i tend to advice people about wise things which i know is true.. but me...myself..huh.. bakit ganon?pag ako na ung nasa sitwasyon.. di ko na matulungan yung sarili ko.. sa part na yan wala na akong masabihang tao kasi feeling ko pride ko yun dahil ako nga nag aadvice sa kanila kung anong dapat gawin.. tapos ico-confess ko na "i don't know what to do?!" well my heart is really gullible.. bakit pag gusto mong pairalin yung mind over heart.. parang may instinct pa rin na nagpu-push sayo gawin kahit na pilit mong kinakalimutan... yuck... eews... i hate these things.. pero totoo naman sila.. un na nga eh its my pride again kasi sabi ko apa sakanila"hay naku di mangyayari saakin yan noh because love for me is saying goodbye to my fondest dreams and saying hello to my worst nightmare" well yan pa motto ko.. pero nakakahiya dahil parang kinain ko mga sinabi ko.. shucks ngayon ko lang narealize nung patapos na.. as the song goes.. "i'm almost over you..so when you come back aroud after painting the town.. you'll see i'm almost over you.."but actually hindi pa ganon ka over.. kaya nga gusto ko na pumasok para mas maging occupied nako .. yuck i never thought na mararamdaman ko toh.. ang weird.. and falling for the wrong person.. yung alam mong mali ang nararamdaman mo.. sabi nga "why is it so wrong when it feels so right" pero head over heart pa rin.. i know na bata pa ako at kalokohan lahat yan.. its simply a test kung gano ka katatag..para labanan ang ganyang temptation harhar.. but i can say i'm matured na.. at alam ko na marami pa akong pangarap at hindi ako kailangang ma hold- back ng feelings na kawawa ka naman.. bakita ganon tutulong ka nalang.. masasaktan ka pa..kung titingnan i'm always ready to help pero lagi akong bigo.. pero lam ko na.. kasi its not the time.. and i'm so thankful kasi hindi ako pinapabayaan ni Lord.. ANG BABAW NITO NOH!BAKIT KO PINOPROBLEMA?!sumabay pa sa mga family problems.. kaya kung titingnan chicken lang.. you just have to win over your heart.. ngaun yun ang pinag-aaralan kong gawin.. pano ba makokontrol.. kasi grabe ako lagi ko nalang binibigay lahat ng mabibigay ko minsan pano naman ako>?at isa pa talagang tinatago ko yun sa mga tao.. sa bagay matagal ko na ring hindi nararanasan yun.. pero nbgayong bumalik nanaman ang ganitong feeling.. hirap na naman ako uto- uto kasi puso eh.. pero i learned my lesson..why waste time for somebody?hindi naman niya magagantihan yung inaalay mo?duh!?waste of time.. and MASTER MISSION muna.. tsaka na yung mate.. feeling ko sobrang manhid ko na..waah sorry walang mapagsabihan..this will be the last.. and i'll try my best.. i'll close my heart first.. i'll save it for someone God would give me if ever.. ayokong magkamali.. ayokong magkaroong ng broken.... sawa na ako..I HAVE ALWAYS KNOWN.. ITS TOO GOOD TO BE TRUE..i'm wiser now!
"you made me stronger by breaking my heart.. you end up my life making a better one start.. you thought me everything from falling in love to letting go of a lie.. yes you made me stronger.. baby by saying goodbye.. kinanta ko lang.. bakit?!"naalala ko pa yung mga katangahan ko para sa kanila.. pare- pareho kaya alam ko na sarili ko.. paran ko silang pinagsisilbihan na walang bayad?! ano ako baliw?and what do i get? a teary eye?hindi naman nilang hiniling na ma fall ako eh.. kabisado ko na.. after akong madevelop.. gagana na ang pagkatanga ko .. pero last na toh.. manhid na ko ngaun.. at matagal nayun.. naaalala ko lang.. hirap talaga ng puyat kung anu- ano naiisip...harhar.. well its me.. signing off...stop these things... ok.. harhar korny things.. part of my past..hav to sleep shopping pa ko eh...harhar

what happened this day

~~sunny day~~ pagka gising ko.. nag internet agad ako.. para i-update ung blogdrive ko kaya lang abby told me nba mas maganda daw sa blogspot at gagawan daw nia ako ng lay-out na maganda... at pare-pareho kami nung iba pa ng theme sa blogdrive kaya hindi unique kaya pumayag ako binura ko na tuloy ung http://jolen8.blogdrive.com.. pero maganda naman dito kaya ok lang haha thanks to abby gusto ko talaga pink... hehehe well anyway mga 3 hours na pala ako sa internet and i haven't eaten my breakfast.. naaadik na naman ako sa internet.. well i have to go... shopping pako eh ng mga clothes na unif0rm..kasi bawal mag unif0rm... gulo noh?!

~~ afternoon~~ well nakakapagod sa sm north lang kami ng brother ko kasi masyadong malayo sa sm manila eh marami rin namang sale dito sa sm north... well i pcked out good clothes kaya di ko na kailangan bumili ng clothes sa tutuban.. konti nalang mga panyo at sandals nalang siguro kasi nakabili na ako ng sneakers sa maLL.. weLL thank God..for this wonderfuL day.. and also for my dearest brother who accompanied me throughout the day.. hindi yata biro ang sumama sa sister niya na walang ginawa kundi ipahawak lang ang mga shopping bags sakanya at naghihintay lang siya na matapos ako sa fitting room.. di siya nagrereklamo.. tat's my bro. and i love him :))

~~moonlight sonata~~ weLL i was so tired for today's activities kaya hindi na ako nakapunta sa gym.. well tom nalang.. punta naman ako ng tutuban.. hectic ang sched eh this week.. few weeks nalang i have to go na.. kaya i just have to do some things nalang.. bago ako umalis..well this is the last tv show i watched... hehe stained glass..

thanks to..ABBY.. the computer freak harhar

well what i'm doing right now... of course first of all thanks to my dear friend abby... she asked me to erase my blogdrive account co'z i can't change my template their.. well I trust her because she's really a computer addict harhar... well its simpla and cute.. well thanks abby.. well i'll be back later for free internet hours harhar,, so that i can write what happened to me this day and so on...

what the heck?

well... another day has come.. yesterday i went to the church and our pastor gave us a very good sermon.. He said that we must not forget our elders.. he told us he's experiences when he was in Europe and he said that he's really sad of the things that are happening the places he went through.. he said that most of the people living there is really sad because people living there are busy that they neglect to have their own family time. He even said that the elderly just requests the government to have them assisted to kill them which is legal in Europe... imagine?! the government decides on which date you are going to die?that is morally wrong! how sad these things are happening to us.. even the Filipinos in the other countries just leave their love ones behind... when I think about it .. its really disgusting... how could you just leave behind the people you love and just forget how they raised you up?!duh!that's worst!how sad it is...tsk tsk.....

my first entry

weLL its late right now.. i'm the only one here in the house still wide awake.. well I had a beautiful day today.. always been... first of all I made this blogsite for me to express what I feel some sort of expression of what I think.. harhar.. and to release my emotions which I can't say... might as well i just can write it.. haha